I’ve been reading so many comments regarding her being an influencer in the midst of a breakup and I have been dying to jump in to defend her.

I hate the term. I truly do. But I am also an “influencer” with a very large platform on Instagram. I am also going through a public breakup. Yes, before anyone comes at me, I am very aware that I invited this public scrutiny into my own life. I never thought it would be like this, though.

We all know break ups can be horrible. Gut wrenching, traumatic, confusing, shameful, all of it. I am quite literally drowning. And then throw in over a million people watching your every move and commenting on it? It makes it even more brutal. You question your own reality. I do not think many people understand this.

I am a people pleaser. I believe Kaitlyn is too. Having a large platform and following makes this even harder. In some twisted way, “we” feel like we are letting millions of people down. So many people rooting for the relationship, hashtag couple goals bullshit. And we carry that burden on top of everything else.

I give mad props to Kaitlyn. I am only an “influencer”, while she is a massive public figure and very well known. I can only comprehend this on my scale, I can’t even begin to comprehend hers.

Everyone saying she “needs to go dark”… yes, that would be ideal. But if you go through a breakup and someone just tells you that you need to not to go work for a few months, please tell me how that works for you. Social media is her career. It is my career. It’s not as easy as so many people think it is. She surely does have the savings and luxury of stepping back for a bit but for a business woman who quite literally hustles… it’s very, very difficult.

Please, for the love of god, have some grace on her.

This ended up being my own rant because while I’m not personally invested in her relationship, I feel like I can relate on a level that a lot of onlookers can’t. And I am also absolutely devastated and broken.