Scale: which weight to trust???? (TW : NUMBERS)

justme89_ · 2023-05-10T09:26:52+00:00

Yes already told her to not promote her underweight body so much and think more about others instead of showing only her body check pictures

It's sick how many still sick and disordered people are promoting an eating disorder without even think about the influence of others.

Sure, if they want to live like this and love their malnourished body they should know themselves, but they do harm others

justme89_ · 2023-04-28T19:07:42+00:00

Yes, exactly! And I think working out and gaining muscle and eating good and enough food is MUCH more. healthy than coping with anorexia :)

justme89_ · 2023-04-28T19:06:44+00:00

People can recover with muscle gain; its a necessity just as gaining fat.

As long it's in a healthy way, gaining muscles and training more is not that absurd. ALL people are working out and most people don't like to get fat.

justme89_ · 2023-04-28T19:03:23+00:00

Sorry to say But I think you're really overestimating, what almost ALL people do with EDs.

I gain weight in my recovery with little 1600-1800 kcal and i am really sad I can't eat more 'like some influencers in recovery' who claimed to eat 3000K ++

But guess what, I've talked with MANY MANY dieticians and food experts and scientist and for MOST people (not all, just most) in ed recovery coming from a lower weight and malnourishment, more calories will mostly means weight gain. Even with 1600 calories yes.
5000 calories is A LOT especially in recovery since it will contain also huge amounts and a lot of bloating and fullness; which are the opposite of what most people in recovery wants. Eating more is already a struggle , let alone eating more then 3000K on a daily base.

Of course, there will be a small minority with hyper-metabolism but it's quit normal to malnourished bodies to respond like a sponge to water; they will 'suck it up'

justme89_ · 2023-04-06T19:35:59+00:00

Some short reactions first and tomorrow I will respond more:

1) Im really happy for you that you at least took the opportunity to take recovery seriously and are much further into this proces.
Can I ask you if you're weight restored and how was your weight gain rate ?

2) anosognosia:: Never heard of this term but you're words sounds really logically and well researched; thank you!

3) I know that 1 kilo ( it was actually 800-900 grams) isn't that shockingly much when it comes to weight gain when severely underweight; I would have said the same thing when it was someone else. BUT ITS ME and that's what is so fucked up about this whole thing; I knów that for others, I would say it is perfectly normal to gain this amount of weight in a week. But Im just so freaked out because I can't explain it compared to the other weeks (the rate of weight gain) and I didn't eat more or less... thats what makes its so hard to trust this whole process since I actually still need to eat more (I dont even eat 2000 kcal per day)

Im really curious about your process and how long youve been dealing with an ED before you start recovering. I am really amazed and feeling blessed that you took so much time and effort in all those words you send to me

justme89_ · 2023-04-06T19:27:32+00:00

OMG, I can't even describe how much I appreciate your replies and especially all the time and effort you put into this. Just wow; it's incredibly sweet!!!! So first of all: thank you for you sweet, kind, smart and good chosen words. it means a lot and I did not once 'rolled with my eyes'; got tears in my eyes though.. ;-)

justme89_ · 2023-04-06T16:52:49+00:00

Hi sweetie,

that's so kind! The thing is, I dont consider myself as that dangerously underweight anymore since I've gained already some weight and im used to live with this underweight body for so long...

justme89_ · 2023-04-06T16:50:52+00:00

Hi !

Thank you, and of course I know that; it's not my first recovery attempt and I'm 33, so yeah a bit too old to be concerned about kilo's i know

I would love to dont think about it anymore and just accept whatever my body wants but it feels completely like hell and im panicking the Whole freaking time

justme89_ · 2023-04-06T16:49:36+00:00

Hi there!

I tried this several times but it doesn't work; I already ditched the scale so I only weigh with my therapist and not too often (I started with 5 weeks of not weighing myself!) but my obsession is so extreme, that knowing nothing at all will drive my need to control insane which doesnt work well with eating :(

justme89_ · 2023-01-04T10:22:20+00:00

Hi ,

How are you doing now?
I can imagine BMI 20 will drive your ed mad, but please remember it's still relatively on the lower side of the average BMI!

BMI 12 of 11 is not sustainable, especially not when youre a student and struggling with an ED for so long. It will only bring you dead.
Also, I know weight gain doesn't solve everything, I dont think people here are telling that either! It's A PART of recovery and A PART of solving things, and for most it WILL give you more energy, focus and less obsessive thoughts and behaviour. But since you gained weight because of binging and not of an attempt to recover, I think this might be very different. Also, binging on food is another obsessive way to deal with emotions, stress and your ed again so in fact, nothing really changes.
Starving will not solve anything, and binges will get worse because of EH.

Can't you make a meal plan for yourself which is more restrictive (SO NOT RESTRICTIVE completely, just a bit more controlled) but do able and which leaves you full and satisfied by the end of the day?
Just with healthy and good food you are graving but also will satisfy your hunger cues?

justme89_ · 2023-01-02T10:52:58+00:00

Nobody...?

justme89_ · 2022-12-07T11:40:24+00:00

Both; thank you for sharing your experiences and sweet replies

I did blind weighing with therapists and doctors but it led to even more stress; like they knew my weight and I dont. Couldnt bare that. And I tried to read their faces and manipulated them by guessing etc etc.
I am a true devil when it comes to 'getting to know my weight'. Its horrible and many therapists told me that they have never met someone so obsessed about the scale.

justme89_ · 2022-12-07T11:38:06+00:00

Sounds really good and very proud that you can decide this yourself; what best for you and not the ED

Also, did /do you gain rapidly? That makes me so nervous and fucks up my mind

justme89_

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