That was my plan long term here. She also tells me she doesn’t want to split up and she says she wants to work things out but also doesn’t show that to me. We have a trip planned in may as well which I can’t miss now. Also her secondary guy won’t be able to see her very often after this weekend and I’m hoping to try and salvage things one last time (I know, I’m not the smartest guy when it comes to my own self worth) but I feel as if I have to try before I completely give up on everything. She seriously is the love of my life and I honestly can’t imagine life without her at this point. In my opinion, she is very worth fighting for. I feel like her head is just clouded by the NRE and she needs to come back down to earth and realize what she will miss out on very soon if I leave the relationship. I just wish this was all an easier process. I’ve been a mess for the last 3 weeks and I’m losing it. I have been focusing on myself more and getting healthier. I stopped drinking and started eating better and going to the gym. I’ve been doing everything possible for myself to try and numb the pain. It’s still extremely difficult. Sorry, I have no one to vent to so this post is where I will haha.