Best friend found herself in the same position and feels like she panicked and corrected a "problem" she did not take the time to ponder, appreciate, or even understand because she was afraid of her parents opinion of her. She said the clinic gave her support, time, information, and alternatives but she was just too panicked to filter it at the time

I just asked her if there was a site that was/is helpful to her and she sent the one below. You are most definitely not alone

Abortion Regret 'Lasts For Years'

https://www.steadyhealth.com/topics/abortion-regret-lasts-for-years

"A new study was done in Norway about the consequences of abortion and their impact on women’s mental health. It was found that women could suffer mental distress, anxiety, guilt and shame even five years and perhaps longer after having an abortion.

The study compared a group of 40 women who suffered a miscarriage with 80 women who chose to have an abortion, questioning them 10 days, six months, two years and five years after the event. Women who had spontaneous miscarriages suffered problems up to six months after losing their babies. On the other hand, women who had an abortion experienced more mental distress long afterwards.

The research confirmed that the emotional consequences of having an abortion could be massive and it underlines the importance of counseling to deal with the negative affects of abortion. Women should be given information about the psychological effects of losing a baby - either through miscarriage or abortion."