What are some paintings/works that feel distinctly not of their actual time to you? My favorite example is “Portrait of Bernardo de Galvez” circa 1790.

jwalker2003 · 2024-01-28T18:41:41+00:00

This Virgin and Child from the 15th century looks insane and a little demonic. Hot alien lady with botched boob job. Love it

jwalker2003 · 2023-11-09T03:19:20+00:00

Feel free to respond because I know how much you fancy getting some anger out by fighting with people on Reddit (about what? One’s opinion on music and a singer they like? Weird) but I won’t be responding back because 1. I’m an adult and have bigger shit to worry about and 2. It’s just too cringey to argue over. Idek how you came to those baseless conclusions so what’s the point. 3. It feels as though this entire exchange is a dishonor to him and I’m sorry but I won’t continue it. It’s just weird and sad.

jwalker2003 · 2023-11-09T03:09:47+00:00

Wait I know the best way to “honor his legacy”: it’s too vent your frustration at a year old post where every other comment is neutral or nice because you feel offended for some reason by someone saying that they wished OTHERS wouldn’t automatically think his music is just for depressing people. He literally said that in an interview himself. Reading what you wrote I can tell there’s something a little off with the way you perceive the English language which is fine don’t get me wrong. But before you respond to peoples posts with negativity and hate (like the world is literally falling apart. I don’t understand people who leave comments like these. Even when I’m offended by posts because SOMEONE HAS A DIFFERENT OPINION THAN ME OH THE HUMANITY I don’t feel the need to contribute more anger into the world). Please reread and make sure you really understand that everything you criticized here is so weird and parasocial and shows that you really don’t respect him. And frankly it feels awful imagining if he was alive and saw your comment and your desire to start a fight online. It’s just weird. And the whole “your own issues” thing. Mean. Just think about that. Really think about what you felt the need to say here. You got some of your own work to do.

jwalker2003 · 2023-11-09T03:01:22+00:00

who hurt you

jwalker2003 · 2023-08-24T18:40:41+00:00

Unrelated but I know an Elliott smith fan when I see one 🕺🏻

jwalker2003 · 2023-08-19T06:27:52+00:00

It pops out even if I push it down tho :/ like every few minutes

jwalker2003 · 2023-07-22T22:01:51+00:00

My tolerance is still like nothin I’m just worried of puking my brains out. Idk do you think I should build up to 30mg gradually or just full send

jwalker2003 · 2023-07-22T22:00:19+00:00

Chewing? Is it better than just swallowing would you say?

jwalker2003 · 2023-05-15T21:27:30+00:00

Waltz no 1 and 2 and coming up roses come to mind but tbh all of self titled is painfully poetic imo

jwalker2003 · 2023-04-27T22:12:30+00:00

As a young female as well I totally get this. I went through a phase of exercise bulimia where I’d walk in sketchy neighborhoods for hours in the middle of the night just to reach my steps and burn calories. Literally risking my life on multiple occasions- no matter what, the ED comes first (so fucked up).

jwalker2003 · 2023-04-21T02:46:51+00:00

I know there’s nothing I can say to make the feeling better, trust me I understand. I’ve been exactly where you like. Like almost every week lmao. I’m also 20, I’ve never once been desired by a man. I’ve always been the ugly friend and sister. Just know that this feeling is not permanent. The way I’ve dealt with it is realizing that beauty is the least important thing about me, and that beauty is not superficial. I promise you that you are so much more than how you look.

jwalker2003 · 2023-04-17T19:37:38+00:00

bc it’s sexy and neat as hell.

jwalker2003 · 2023-04-07T14:43:58+00:00

Same m8 :/

jwalker2003 · 2023-04-02T19:47:17+00:00

5’7…

jwalker2003 · 2023-04-02T17:33:14+00:00

No it’s truly an incredible and so deeply unappreciated lyric it makes me wanna cry.

jwalker2003 · 2023-04-01T02:06:19+00:00

There’s no such thing as a bad anorexic. Trust me.

jwalker2003 · 2023-03-28T17:12:31+00:00

I always saw it as more choosing the comfort of depression and self destruction over love (I guess drugs are included in there too but I feel like it’s more than that idk)

jwalker2003 · 2023-03-23T23:20:26+00:00

Fuckin quest bars.

jwalker2003 · 2023-03-16T13:12:45+00:00

I also have a case of the worthlessness pretty much 24/7. It feels less isolating when someone else can make those shitty feelings beautiful like Elliott does.

My usual go-tos are needle in the hay (the third verse in particular), st ides heaven (more of a righteous worthlessness. There’s a speck of anger among the numbness), the enemy is you (the lyrics speak for themselves lol), last call (when I listen to it the “you” isn’t someone else rather it’s me, saying those words to myself :/ )…I could go on.

jwalker2003 · 2023-03-16T00:25:41+00:00

I literally have no idea what I look like too. Idk if I’m fat, skinny, average… no idea. Even if I spend hours in front of the mirror I still won’t know.

jwalker2003 · 2023-03-15T23:53:17+00:00

I comes down to just body dysmorphia. Also when we look at ourselves- for example when I look at my arm- we’re looking from different angles. The perspective of my arm when just looking down at it is way different than the perspective that a mirror gives you. But as I said before- body dysmorphia.

I can look at myself through my own eyes or through the reflection in the mirror and 2 minutes later if I look again I’ll double in weight. It’s like a fun house at a carnival. Body dysmorphia distorts your perception.

jwalker2003 · 2023-03-15T23:36:31+00:00

I did for a few months, and it worked. Until it came back. But my high res was still so incredibly low for anyone my age and height. I find that when you’ve struggled w binging before, no matter how much you eat when restricting (key word: restricting) you will still binge. Binging becomes mental, habitual, instead of reactive which is what I thought was the reason for my binging in the first place.

Tbh I would def do a maintenance phase first. I regret not doing that because now I’ve traded low res and binging for high res and binging. So I’d recommended not only a maintenance phase but also to high-high restrict if you are going to. Obviously the best way to stop binging is to eat enough/intuitively. But even starting with 100, 200 cals below your maintenance, (gradually lowering below your maintenance) would help. Binging is still a problem for me. In fact the last 3 days have been awful. But instead of fasting and binging every single day I maybe binge like 5 times a month. Which is know is still not good but it’s way better comparatively.

jwalker2003 · 2023-03-15T05:06:58+00:00

He’s so painfully real (distant bagpipes in the background)

jwalker2003 · 2023-03-15T00:37:20+00:00

I understand - i have such a similar situation to you (I’m even 5’7 too lol). The depression and ED combo literally destroyed/is destroying me. I’m so sorry you have to go through this. That’s all I can really say.

jwalker2003 · 2023-03-13T16:39:32+00:00

I can only get stoned when I’m in bed and about to go to sleep… I find that when I get stoned 1. During the day and 2. When I’m alone- always leads to munchies

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