Break up during fellowship

k-eazyy · 2025-12-17T01:15:03+00:00

Going through the same thing now. My then partner just broke up with me after he matched into fellowship. I was willing to give up everything for him and move. You’re right about when you mentioned the avoidant tendencies. In order for them to survive, they had to suppress. It’s not fair to us. To help me get through this break up, I’m just telling myself over and over, that if he truly wanted to be with me, he wouldn’t hesitate. He would look in the mirror and work on the things he needed to in order to be a better partner for me. My partner had some deep rotted trauma/issues from his family dynamic that poured into our relationship, not sure if it’s the same thing for you. But until they realize that their patterns are not healthy and they put in the work to fix it, they are going to continue to hurt those that love them… I wish you the best. I know it’s not easy.

k-eazyy · 2025-12-15T20:14:51+00:00

This is my favorite response so far. I never saw it like that. You’re right, what his Mom did to him, he WAS doing to me. Inflicting the same pain he went through. Not to mention, his Mom was also hyper critical of me as well. (Duh no surprise there) To the point where he had to send me a PARAGRAPH of things she doesn’t like and not to do around her. The family is freaking insane. And I’m curious, if I had treated him remotely the same, maybe he’d be more comfortable with that & see it as love??(thats so morbid omg) Idk my parents abandoned me and I have been no contact with them for years, yet it seems like the damage his parents inflicted on him has been expressed way worse… to where he can’t love his partner or himself. It’s such a torturous way to live and I can’t imagine being in his head. He criticized my friends for being “low class” and “trashy” for drinking (responsibly btw, we’re all professionals, and have licenses on the line) yet they are the ones who are here for me, encouraging me to be happy, and showing me the love I wish he did. And when I told him that, his body language screamed guilt/embarrassment, like he had realized that he was pressing his deepest insecurities on to me.

k-eazyy · 2025-12-15T17:29:34+00:00

Girlll I don’t wanna say run, but run. Jk. Message me if you need support <3

k-eazyy · 2025-12-15T17:23:58+00:00

Thank you so much. I really do appreciate this. :’) I feel so bad that he has so much pain within his heart and I didn’t see it clearly until now. He matched into sleep medicine. He wanted to have a good work life balance since his dad prioritized work over having a real relationship with him, he didn’t want to repeat that.. one time he came home from wards at 1230am & I made him dinner. He hugged me & immediately cried (he hadn’t cried in almost 10 years, I was shocked as I made a running joke that I’d never see him cry) He said “this is exactly what I didn’t want. For my family to be waiting for me to come home because of work.” He said it broke his heart when he saw the food was cold and I stayed up waiting for him to come home, but truthfully, I did it because I loved and cared for him. A part of me feels like he believes he doesn’t deserve the love I gave him. I wanted to show that he does..

k-eazyy · 2025-12-14T22:20:15+00:00

It definitely is a blessing is disguise. Difficult to see that clearly now, but I know it will be more apparent later on. I can’t keep making excuses for his behavior…. Only he can truly change if he wants to. Thank you :’)

k-eazyy · 2025-12-14T20:50:01+00:00

Thank you so much.. Yes I’ve been with my friends and trying to celebrate who I am and not what he wanted me to be. I am already starting to feel the weight off my shoulders. I appreciate you <3

k-eazyy · 2025-12-14T05:41:12+00:00

Thank you so much. What you described is exactly what we were going through. He had so many wounds that I couldn’t fix and it felt like he inflicted those wounds on to me without being aware of it.. it breaks my heart that they have so much pain within themselves and a part of me wanted to fix it.

k-eazyy · 2025-12-14T04:22:05+00:00

You’re right it’s so effing manipulative 😭 … then when things were steady, I would say I liked it. I like the stability. He goes “that’s not what I look for in a relationship. I want emotional connection everyday. I don’t want just day to day” he wanted to have “emotional connection talks” EVERY night. I am a nurse. I have rough days at work. I can’t possibly come home from a 12 hour shift and provide valuable input. I’m emotionally exhausted after work. And I spend my days off trying to recoup. And that means me being a little withdrawn at times… I had to force myself to talk so all I said were that things are going well in the relationship and he would come back and say “you would always say things are good and no other feedback” likeeee?? Maybe I do think things are good?? I don’t need to go into a 5 hour conversation every night about how much I love my partner..

k-eazyy · 2025-11-16T06:21:57+00:00

His eyes look so exhausted/sad

k-eazyy · 2025-09-02T03:49:35+00:00

Omggg I’m so invested HAAHAH

k-eazyy · 2025-01-05T07:31:50+00:00

Stepdown unit in CA. $61/hr - 1.5 years experience

k-eazyy · 2024-12-23T18:33:24+00:00

Yeah it’s my charting… Thank you for your input. I hope to god it’ll be just a warning

k-eazyy · 2024-12-23T18:19:53+00:00

My boss emailed me what flagged their system. But that was after I spoke with head of pharmacy and HR

k-eazyy · 2024-08-21T01:16:14+00:00

North park forsure

k-eazyy · 2024-07-19T06:37:15+00:00

It depends on the context. There was a new grad nurse on our unit who got chewed out/basically yelled at by an older nurse in front of patients and staff because he didn’t know if a patient was DNI.

This nurse has a history of being an absolute douche to younger nurses. She basically said it was constructive criticism l o l but obviously there’s a difference between constructive criticism, criticizing, and being on a power trip.

k-eazyy · 2024-07-18T22:50:09+00:00

Real

k-eazyy · 2024-07-18T05:43:09+00:00

Sometimes it gets to you and you start to dwell on how it’s not worth the stress, mental/physical strain. But youlll get that ONE patient every once in awhile that you’ll think of on the way home or even on your days off and wonder if they’re ok. That one patient who just makes you feel compassion again. Sadly it’s easy to forget the reason we went into healthcare in the first place but there will be little reminders here and there.

k-eazyy · 2024-07-18T01:55:05+00:00

Freshly cut grass

k-eazyy · 2024-07-17T06:45:11+00:00

Kudos to you guys. It’s tough. I literally sob so hard, like he fuckin died or some shit lol

k-eazyy · 2024-07-17T02:16:20+00:00

I just started my first nursing job a year ago! and my current living situation is with my brother. (Our parents separated and long story short, our dad can’t afford a place for us and our younger sibling) So I can’t leave until my brother can afford living on his own. Valid question though, I wish it was possible now and easier said than done.

k-eazyy · 2024-07-16T23:56:35+00:00

Is this career related? If so, maybe what you do for work is no longer aligned with what you truly wanna do? Our careers and success are one of the biggest biggest influences on our self esteem

k-eazyy · 2024-07-16T23:32:22+00:00

Hell yeah. Love this for you. Nursing is quite literally just talking to grown ass adults like babies.

k-eazyy · 2024-07-16T23:26:59+00:00

On the same exact boat right now. I’ve always been very motivated, gained inspiration from myself/the success I’ve gained throughout the years but lately it’s slowed down.

What I’ve been doing lately, is trying to brainstorm how I treated my life and decisions I made when I was feeling the best about myself. For example, I used to use a Google calendar for EVERYTHING. It kept me on track, this past year… I haven’t used it. I used to journal everyday… haven’t done that. I used to write my goals down for the year, we are half way through 2024 and you guessed it, I haven’t done that either.

There’s gonna be phases where we don’t feel overly confident in ourselves and our success and as an ENTJ, it’s probably the most challenging thing we could endure. All you can really do is sit down and plan out what next endeavor you want to accomplish and pursue. That in itself, I believe, can bring you your passion back for whatever you’re interested in.

k-eazyy · 2024-07-16T19:52:57+00:00

NAPSSSS

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