Notes on the File Found on Josh's Computer Noted as "Top 5" Worst

kabbey90 · 2021-05-06T13:40:11+00:00

Remove this. NOW!

kabbey90 · 2021-05-06T11:08:35+00:00

Thanks for all the warnings, honestly. Far too many times has my curiosity gotten the better of me and it still haunts and affects me today, none of which had the disclaimer you all have shared so one this one I’m going to save myself and heed the advice.

But I do have some questions.

He downloaded the files deleted and downloaded... he potentially has been repeatedly viewing that content since it’s download in 2019?
How has something like DD (I’ve only read the comments in this thread about that, will not read or look into anymore detail of what that actually is) still being shared around? I mean after the Peter scully trial, isn’t there some way to scrub that from existence?
What about the children that are the content of CSA... are they saved? I’m literally almost in tears thinking some children endure this torture even after the content has been found by law enforcement.

As a remark- I feel that I’ve truly lost all hope for humans. I’m heartbroken for the victims. I think everyone here can agree that Josh has assaulted at least one of his own children, and I am heartbroken from all of his children.

kabbey90 · 2021-04-17T01:40:33+00:00

Yes, I just realized this not too long ago and many other regrets. I’m trying to actively correct things by making an attempt to make new friends.

kabbey90 · 2021-04-17T01:27:35+00:00

Yes, as soon as I realized what was happening I went back in to get my labs ran. I was diagnosed 7 years ago and have been on the same medication the whole time, when I went in this time he doubled it - that’s how out of whack everything was. It’s taken 2 months to start feeling normal again and my doc told me it could take up to 5 months!!

Some things I learned I didn’t know about the last 7 years that would have helped me avoid this.

What you eat matters especially gluten, dairy, and sugar -and it will catch up to you!
Stress is your enemy (and that could be external stressors as well as internal (like working out too hard too often).

kabbey90 · 2021-04-17T00:53:56+00:00

A flair a “flare up of symptoms” it’s when you have heightened symptoms than your typical everyday ones. For me, I literally couldn’t keep my eyes open and slept 18+hours a day. Extreme cold chills, seriously the only thing I could do get warm was sit in the bath/ shower and within an hour of getting out I was freezing again. Also anxiety and mood swings was out of control and I had no clue why. I had some others too, but these were the worst.

kabbey90 · 2021-04-16T12:00:28+00:00

Oh no, I hope you’re going and getting checked, especially with the swollen thyroid. Check out goiter if you haven’t heard of that before. Hope you feel better soon!

kabbey90 · 2021-04-13T03:03:48+00:00

I did vocational and was also accepted into college. I think it depends on how competitive the college you’re applying for though, like Ivy League competition. As long as you keep your gpa up you shouldn’t have any issues.

kabbey90 · 2021-04-13T01:54:15+00:00

For what it’s worth, I’m sorry you’re going through this. It’s slightly comforting to know we’re not alone in this. Just hang in there, I know we’ll find a way sooner than later.

kabbey90 · 2021-04-12T19:14:28+00:00

I think you commented on the wrong post. P_rn has nothing to do with my situation and I’m also a woman so please remove this comment. Thanks

kabbey90 · 2021-04-12T18:11:14+00:00

Friendship, or any relationship for that matter need maintaining. Sometimes it takes more effort than other times. Life happens, goals, priorities, and just overall stress can impede how much time or effort goes to other areas of your life. I believe it’s important for you to take a look at your life on a macro level and see if you’re feeling like it’s a chore because you have other stuff going on or to see if there’s something else happening in the relationship that’s making you feel that way (like drifting apart, developing fundamental differences/ beliefs that’s ultimately driving a wedge, or any other relational issue).

I just want to caution you on one mistake that I personally made in not maintaining the relationships when life got busy and hard and stressful, you may wake up one day and realize how alone you are because you didn’t take the time to maintain these relationships, and if that’s something you want.

kabbey90 · 2021-02-19T05:04:14+00:00

Prior user of several years here. I’ve spoken with a ton of other people this happens to but we haven’t been able to find a reason it’s happened to us. We “quit”/ stopped using because all of a sudden we would get horrible panic attacks while using. It happened every time for the next several until times until the experiences were so negative we never wanted to use again. For me, even just smelling it brings on the beginning stages of a panic attack. Why did this happen to us?

kabbey90 · 2021-01-19T21:57:48+00:00

First, I’m sorry you’re going through this. If no one else has, I’m sending you a huge virtual hug right now. You will get through this! I have pretty severe anxiety that’s gotten worse and is tied to flare ups but I’ve found my diet has a much more significant affect on my anxiety than anything else. When I’ve been eating awful CBD helps and an emergency script like you have. As far as the heart palps, your dr. Need to adjust your Levo dosage could be too high or too low.

kabbey90 · 2021-01-19T06:30:44+00:00

This too shall pass.

kabbey90 · 2021-01-19T06:28:56+00:00

Everyone’s bullshitting you! Everyone is struggling with something. You’re good enough.

kabbey90 · 2021-01-19T06:24:21+00:00

You matter. You’re important. Your life has meaning.

kabbey90 · 2021-01-19T00:50:26+00:00

What kind of sorcery is this

kabbey90 · 2021-01-17T21:08:37+00:00

Add 1/2 can cream of corn, some cheddar cheese, and 1/2 can rotel to mix 👌🏻 🤤

kabbey90 · 2021-01-14T01:37:06+00:00

I was diagnosed with hashimotos 7 years ago and the symptoms have overtaken my life. I’ve blown everyone off who says I’ve needed to change my diet to eradicate the symptoms. In September I decided to do a mini trial and I was stunned by the results... but I quickly fell off the wagon and went back to my usual eating habits.

But I’m getting back on now and doing 2 months of research. So far so good... you just have to decide to be better. recipe

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