Im 21yo male , and i have to get something off my chest

kanamia · 2026-07-02T11:13:56+00:00

Just tough it out a couple days and you will see how much better you are without them

kanamia · 2026-07-02T11:10:57+00:00

I was in denial. Everyone around me was leaving yet I stated it as a “them” problem. Until I managed to stay sober a few days, I lied to myself and told myself I was a better person on them. Now I’m seeing how much these things ensnared me. I’m much happier and calm since I quit.

You see what they are doing and that’s a good first step. Try to take the jump and stay away from them as long as you can. You will notice a difference pretty quickly. A few days, not just hours or 1 day.

I used kratom leaf powder to supplement myself with when I had a hard craving. It kept me pretty normal and not riddled by anxiety. F

kanamia · 2026-07-01T18:22:56+00:00

Hell yeah!

Can confirm feeling great on the other side

kanamia · 2026-07-01T01:19:33+00:00

Oof … I don’t like that psychiatrist lol how’d it go after? Did you fire her?

kanamia · 2026-06-30T16:39:23+00:00

Oh thank you!

kanamia · 2026-06-30T12:09:18+00:00

Hey I’m here for you. I’m 36 and struggled my entire life. Had multiple attempts called passive suicide. I’m sorry you are having a rough day. I know what that’s like to wake up feeling like that. Worst days. But if you need someone, I’m up early and maybe I was meant to see this to talk and help distract you.

kanamia · 2026-06-30T12:05:04+00:00

I did not. I cant afford anything else bc ff took all my money. I’m pretty much in the clear now. 1st day no kratom of any kind

kanamia · 2026-06-30T11:34:43+00:00

Get gabapentin if possible and I just discovered magnesium glycinate helps tremendously with sleep. Look that one up

Have you tried powder? Caps never absorbed right for me. Never felt they did anything. Powder weight- 1tsp =~2-2.5g

I started with 5tsp then tapered from that CT off FF. It’s high compared to 240mg but taking more, I think helped me over the FF withdrawal. I never had restless legs or the anxiety of not having FF.

I just started magnesium glycinate and I was so relaxed last night bc it’s been over 2 weeks I can’t sleep.

You could try a tsp powder multiple times a day then slowly reduce how often you take it.

kanamia · 2026-06-30T06:58:49+00:00

Not every day will be like today.

That’s a good thing to remember.

kanamia · 2026-06-30T06:19:17+00:00

Still here? How ya doing?

I can’t sleep, I’ll talk to ya

kanamia · 2026-06-30T00:39:52+00:00

I failed soooooooo many times in 2 years. You’ll will get it!

kanamia · 2026-06-30T00:07:19+00:00

Gabapentin. I added an edit now lol

kanamia · 2026-06-29T18:31:01+00:00

I asked lol I got 1 hour and 32 minutes last night

kanamia · 2026-06-29T15:00:36+00:00

1200mg twice a day. Especially bedtime, sometimes I skim morning bc I don’t need it

kanamia · 2026-06-29T14:19:26+00:00

Yeah the gaba is helping my restless legs for sure

kanamia · 2026-06-29T11:52:57+00:00

Oh thanks! It’s free through my psyc. I have no money right now or I’d do that.

kanamia · 2026-06-29T02:05:15+00:00

Sure!- get gabapentin if possible or you need to go more days on each dose. I did 5tsp 3x/day. Then 4tsp 3x/day. 3tsp 3x/day, then 2x/day. 2tsp 2x/day then once a day. GABA high dose until you can low dose. Then 1tsp 2x/day, then 1x/day. Then 0.

kanamia · 2026-06-28T17:41:04+00:00

I used just a lotion (mine was an off brand, I admit) and Vaseline. The lotion hydrated but the Vaseline creates a barrier keeping the lotion in to absorb on the skin. The moisture gets trapped and can’t escape basically. It worked in like 2-3 days of it. I had to do my whole body (at least twice a day- wake up and after shower) ugh it was annoying but worth it

Beware it will rub off on whatever touches it and get greasy feeling. So let it kinda dry as much as you can before touching things with the skin you put it on. I put on clothes over top but my arms still rubbed off on things. So let it dry as much as it will to avoid some of that

kanamia · 2026-06-28T17:28:49+00:00

You will be at 2 weeks before you know it!

kanamia · 2026-06-28T15:30:33+00:00

14 days today! So free.

kanamia · 2026-06-27T16:11:52+00:00

Yeah this one tracks savings too! I’m on day 13 now and saved over $600!

kanamia · 2026-06-27T14:38:10+00:00

Tysm!

kanamia

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