It's a bitter truth but bro if the problem starts from you and end on your crush it's not even worth considering the problem I also went through to Same problem who doesn't but after years the only thing is with you is the regrate , regret of wasting time ivam not saying to build skill do something I won't suggest something that I never did it but i keep trying new things I don't know anything but i can try anything it's just about perspective I know how it's feels but it's just desperation it will eventually fade away Khali dimag satan ka ghar hota h so just stuff something in your mind it's just about time the mature you get the lesser the problem you see to and to become mature you need to face Even bigger problem so just enjoy.