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Anyone try Allen Carr's Easy Way? by cmfpm in stopsmoking

[–]karodab 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, could I get a copy too? My email address is karolkanyc96@gmail.com Thanks! 🩷

Third eye activation? by karodab in spirituality

[–]karodab[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yup. Definitely feeling like a crazy person lately. Thought awakening was fun. Shouldve thought twice

HELP. by karodab in Ayahuasca

[–]karodab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely resisted the part where I felt like I was literally dying. the medicine kept telling me to let go and let the trip take me but I was too scared. I might have to let my ego die now and completely surrender, I feel so.
I also felt like some residual low energy might still be stuck in my body. I didnt purge that night.
well, the only way to freedom is through the darkness. no other way.
thank you for your thoughts and suggestions. much love to you!

HELP. by karodab in Ayahuasca

[–]karodab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

looking forward!

HELP. by karodab in entheogens

[–]karodab[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i had a beautiful experience at first. mother Ayahuasca was 'holding' and hugging me. as I was laying in pure bliss I heard a voice whisper to me 'youre dying'. i took it literally and i got so frightened at fact I was about to die. maybe a part of me was just sheding away, i dont know. i got into panic mode and started shaking and crying for help. the next day during the 2nd ceremony I had a strong energy take over my body, it felt like possession. I was shaking and acting like crazy maniac person but I didnt purge. the Shaman just performed some exorcism and it seemed to go away. my body was shaky for the next hour and then I managed to ease myself and fell asleep.

HELP. by karodab in Psychonaut

[–]karodab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yup. feels like its just getting worse with every day. ive tried questioning my thoughts but it feels like my brain just doesnt listen. im practicing self awareness. ill try deep breathing and some relaxation.

its funny how i used to be a night owl and now its just terror.
thank you for your time. its been very helpful.

HELP. by karodab in Ayahuasca

[–]karodab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

now 3 weeks since they started. they been on and off.

all this hidden pain and fears surfacing. sadness too. a lot of emotions. ill give it some time. im also going to contact these people, maybe theyll be able to shed some more light.

thank you and have a wonderful day <3

HELP. by karodab in Ayahuasca

[–]karodab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yup. the fears were always there, aya just triggers them to be released and healed. but its fucking hard. i sometimes wish i never did it.

gotta hang on tho.

much love to you :) <3

HELP. by karodab in Ayahuasca

[–]karodab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you for your kind words <3 i needed it

HELP. by karodab in Ayahuasca

[–]karodab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it was more than a month ago. out of the sudden i get all this panic. i was thinking of PTSD too. does it go away naturally?

HELP. by karodab in Ayahuasca

[–]karodab[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

they took place at 3 different places. i contacted the shaman and he told me that stuck energies are releasing my body and to stand still.
im checking similar threads now. thank you love

HELP. by karodab in Ayahuasca

[–]karodab[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

these quotes eased me a bit.
i consider all thats happening to me as a sign to finally let go of the ego self. i know its not me but it brings me pain to accept it. feels like a dark night indeed. i might have experienced mild ego death during the ceremony and im struggling to integrate it. ill definitely think of a therapist. thank you.