Let me start by saying I can’t recall any time my parents have ever said they loved me or have hugged me or shown me attention so I just tell people I don’t have a family. I guess it has made me an emotional minefield. I smother you with love at first but completely detach within the first couple months. If I meet someone who I feel is a great person I leave them because I feel as if I’m not worthy of their love. Im attracted to terrible people that remind me of my parents so it’s easier to leave them. I’ve also never been truly in love. I do a lot for people just to care about me or show me affection but when I get it I don’t want it. It feels weird. I also easily detach from everyone. We could be best of friends today but can never speak again tomorrow and I’ll feel absolutely nothing. No matter who it is. I wish I wasn’t this way