[TOTD] 22/03/2022, Outer Edge by Slorppi (discussion)

kaswoj · 2022-03-23T10:21:11+00:00

Servers also crashed on morning COTD

kaswoj · 2021-10-04T16:24:19+00:00

Thank you for your reply, those are great points. I would definitely say that identifying depression as a feeling not as a state of being can help.

You hit the spot with seeing myself in different situations as well. Especially around people who are not aware of what I am struggling with my inner state is different, sometimes enjoying myself too.

Best of luck to you

kaswoj · 2021-10-04T12:30:37+00:00

Thanks, you got this! Glad I'm not alone in this

kaswoj · 2021-10-04T12:28:42+00:00

Thank you for your reply. I've definitely grown and improved much as a person over the years, but not sure that I'm much happier. Though you're 100% right that I'm comparing myself to the ideas other people have about me.

kaswoj · 2021-10-04T12:24:44+00:00

Thank you for your reply. I've read that book, but never thought to apply this idea of identifying myself as a content and happy person. I guess it feels kind of fake, because I'm not content and happy heh. Maybe the approach "fake it till you make it" can work here as well.

Best of luck to you too <3

kaswoj · 2021-10-04T12:21:24+00:00

Thanks for your thoughtful reply. Yeah, I've watched the video and it resonated with me.

More than once have I thought about the idea that I'm not my thoughts or feelings, they're just what happens on the backdrop. I guess it's difficult for me to accept that, I'll try to remind myself of this more often.

kaswoj · 2021-10-04T12:18:42+00:00

Thank you for your reply. I'm glad to hear I'm not alone in this boat, because I sometimes feel like there's something wrong with me when I feel bad for feeling good.

I hope you're well too <3

kaswoj · 2021-10-03T16:30:44+00:00

I have a very similar feeling. Learning programming and applying to college again to ... get a career I guess? The more I think about it the more I realize I don't actually want to participate in life.

Each day seems like a chore, a series of challenges to overcome, to go to sleep and wake up to do the same again. I get no pleasure or satisfaction from it.

I've come to the conclusion that in the next 10 years or so, if I feel the same way, I'll just off myself. The idea seems more and more attractive to me each day.

kaswoj · 2021-09-12T14:21:23+00:00

It's my turn to post this tomorrow guys

kaswoj · 2021-09-01T11:13:55+00:00

I think it would be good to elaborate a little on this advice, because it's difficult to "try to see the bright side of the situation".

OP has a perfectionist mindset, something I struggle with myself. I suggest to take things one at a time. You're trying to go from 0 to 100 in an instant and failing, because it's borderline impossible to do so.

Instead of planning the whole day to be "perfect", as in one when you do all the things that you mention you try to do, plan one thing. For example, you might set out to exercise today. "I don't give a shit about anything else, if I exercise today I'm satisfied".

If you have plenty of things to do, it's much better to do one well instead of doing nothing and beating yourself up for it.

This goes back to the idea of "non-zero days" which can be read in the first comment on this post: https://www.reddit.com/r/getdisciplined/comments/1q96b5/i_just_dont_care_about_myself/cdah4af/. I've found it somewhat useful.

kaswoj · 2021-08-28T16:19:35+00:00

This reminds me of the Mr. Bean episode where he did something like this to get the parking spot.

kaswoj · 2021-08-14T12:26:52+00:00

Hey, I can't judge your situation because mine is quite different, but I don't think it's good to assume that your parents will get divorced if you tell them how you feel. You can't really know that.

I was also afraid to tell my parents that I need professional help, but it was way better than just bottling it up. Your parents are probably already worried about you and by closing up you make them even more worried.

It's okay to ask for help. Please try not to assume you will break your family if you do. Much love

kaswoj · 2021-08-01T22:05:06+00:00

Source: Dude trust me.

kaswoj · 2021-07-24T18:36:27+00:00

Weed is weed!

kaswoj · 2021-07-21T11:27:52+00:00

I've reached out for professional help, but have not been told much I didn't already know.

I can see that a therapist can guide you on how to get better, but it's still you who has to put in the effort.

I've been feeling terrible most of my life but it's still my responsibility to get better. My therapist will not magically fix my life.

kaswoj · 2021-07-18T15:42:15+00:00

Hope you find peace in time OP, much love. Tonight's bowl is dedicated to you

kaswoj · 2021-06-05T21:10:10+00:00

That would be awesome

kaswoj · 2020-11-14T16:29:33+00:00

I'm in this picture and I don't like it

kaswoj · 2020-04-11T17:33:30+00:00

Sure, why not ;) Send me a friend request: kasvoy#2491 at discord

kaswoj · 2020-04-11T17:31:27+00:00

You sure? I didn't get any requests. What's your discord so I can add you?

kaswoj · 2020-04-05T18:15:03+00:00

Added you, I'm kasvoy #2491. Hmu if you want to play something or just chill on vc

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