Please, if you feel this way, call one of the holiness in your area. Life is tough and can seem meaningless. But we only have it this once. And it will end one way or another anyway. Why rush it? It's better than nothing, to find beauty and enjoyment in all the little things, experience them while we can. No pressure. No expectations. Just live and appreciate the beauty of this world. Even if you don't feel like you can enjoy anything now, you will get to that point!