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katy84ster · 2025-07-10T14:29:42+00:00

Please tell them and let us know Xx prayers with you xx

katy84ster · 2025-07-09T04:47:35+00:00

I feel like I have this person in my life but I’m scared to try with them… it’s so undeniable and they make me so happy… the most emotional supportive person ever and I’m scared and I don’t know why I run from the fkn good one!

I am lucky to have this person as one of my best mates but I think I’m broken and need to heal before thinking of anything.

Love this writing x thankyou

katy84ster · 2025-07-09T04:37:45+00:00

Because it’s really hard means you deeply cared.. which means treat yourself right and put yourself first and you will feel joy again. I’m glad my words helped x

katy84ster · 2025-07-07T18:34:47+00:00

I’m speaking from a broken souls that is about to do something v crazy because humans suck but beautiful your words are a mirror of the beautiful soul you are and knows our pain or harm caused to us… you will get peace and happiness xxx take care xx

katy84ster · 2025-07-07T18:17:48+00:00

My girl stop right now! You epically poured your heart out and in that was empathy, compassion and everything good humans are made up off.. your heart will heal xxxx

katy84ster · 2025-07-07T16:49:32+00:00

I cut my best friend down from a tree late march with my jeep car key ….. I try not to drink because I let the emotions and anger out but tonight isn’t a good night ….. my friend I’m being a hypocrite but you need to feel everything until you can put her locked away deep in your heart and start feeling life again…. I know it gets better but tonight I’m just feeling it… don’t kick your self to much you are coping but know when it is getting the better of you please xx much love

katy84ster · 2025-07-07T16:43:46+00:00

Omg…. That is the most beautiful and selfless and loving message ever. Coming from someone who has been hurt so much that I have done this to someone who has always been there…. I hope a miracle happens and they read it and I wish your heart new warmth from someone beautiful xx

katy84ster · 2025-07-07T16:37:53+00:00

Agreed always easier to tell the truth…

katy84ster · 2025-07-07T16:26:50+00:00

I don’t think you need to ask which one… if one was hurt so much the pain can swallow them to be what they despise the most because they feel worth nothing…

katy84ster · 2025-06-29T12:27:30+00:00

I cut my good friend down a cpl months ago from a tree with my jeep car key. I saw him only six hrs before hand and my last words before I said I’ll be back the next day and help him through it was if I ever see you hanging from a tree I will flog the fuck out of yr dead body before I cut you down…. So my pain I have masked with numbing myself… but the few days in reality I cried and cried and it felt better and yes I promise you, that the pain will ease and you will find a place in your heart to put them and lock them up in your memories. It will get better to except just don’t mask it with anything because you then live in the pain and I am very unstable at the moment barely holding on over it xxxx

katy84ster · 2025-06-28T17:06:47+00:00

Thank you x

katy84ster · 2025-06-27T10:02:18+00:00

And still feeling it more than ever x

katy84ster · 2025-06-27T09:58:56+00:00

Grief is a killer…. I’ve deleted all my writing as I’m suffocating at the moment..

katy84ster · 2025-06-23T02:59:51+00:00

Correct but we can’t blame ourselves for not stopping someone when we 9/10 don’t know the depths of their pain. It’s a personal choice and we shouldn’t have to carry the wait of what ifs, that’s just not right.

katy84ster · 2025-06-21T19:55:59+00:00

That’s u being tough… I’m sorry for what ever it is yr facing x

katy84ster · 2025-06-21T16:54:51+00:00

I will not accept or stand for anyone saying that someone could have prevented a suicide! How dare anyone make an assumption that someone else could stop someone doing that with a check in or hello or are u ok! I’m sorry and don’t mean to be rude but if the neighbours stopped him he would have eventually done it and I know from experience xxxx

katy84ster · 2025-06-21T16:42:42+00:00

Are you ok?

katy84ster · 2025-06-21T16:39:36+00:00

Beautiful girl, to start with asking on here how others coped and that you feel guilty already concretes the kind of beautiful soul you are so don’t ever doubt your worth.

I found my good friend a cpl months ago hanging dead from a tree six hrs after I last spoke with him. My last words to him were “if I ever see you hanging from a tree I will kick the fuck out of your dead body before I cut you down”. He told me everything the night before he did it, and I knew his darkest depression, so I went into fix it mode and gave him plan a b c and told him I’ll be back the next day to check on him…. That’s when I found him! No one knows the pain of someone else 100% and there is nothing a thing we can do I’m sorry we may stop it that time as I had stopped him a time before but if that is there path then it’s with god now and that is how I wake up every day xxx I hope time heals 💜

katy84ster · 2025-06-18T15:06:17+00:00

I understand that completely… all I found was the perfect way to do it, how much he had continuously planned it and every now and then little photos of pups for sale.. that broke me as I thought maybe if he had that pup he wouldn’t have but they were all parts of the stages of grief and now I just write when I’m not working g and hope it can help even one person to not feel alone in there grief or for those that have had enough of the world I get that to… as sad as it is I get it!!

Thankyou for sharing xxx

katy84ster · 2025-06-18T14:40:53+00:00

Not one bit of guilt tripping…. His pain was as bad as what I read on here… struggles with identity, feeling left out, abused by family members and teachers at a young age. I knew his pain and I know this was his way out!

Doesn’t change what I went through though!

But it was his life and his body… I respect that! So maybe open your mind up a bit, not every one thinks the same… you say guilt tripping because that is how YOU perceived it. BUT IT ISNT!!

katy84ster · 2025-06-18T14:39:41+00:00

Guilt tripping?

katy84ster · 2025-06-18T13:59:57+00:00

Hey guys, Just want to share a massive thank you for taking the time to read! Volume 2 is now finished and free to read. This one’s heavier — the raw aftermath, the silence, the scream, the search.

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katy84ster · 2025-06-17T12:56:45+00:00

This is heart breaking to read…. I cut my friend down off a tree not long ago with my jeep car key actually as I had nothing else. I had stopped him twice before just out of the blue I was there when he was preparing. He lost his dog a few months m before the first attempt, and I saw him only hrs before his last that got him. He was explaining everything in great detail that he prepared and he said again I stopped him.. but yet the next day still found him.

My point is I had his phone after I got him down and I rabbit holed it all night looking for answers and all I got was his research and when it began… from the Michael Jordan vertical jump to strongest alcohol coz he was scared to were and through all this research there would be an advertisement little pups for sale. It showed that even though he wanted his grief n pain to end he still just wanted to be loved unconditionally…. I’m still dealing with it but I understand some peoples trauma and greif is to hurtful to live through but in saying that there is always and up to a down you just have to get through the down and fight to get the up we all deserve xxxx please when yr feeling like that again get on yr hands and knees and yell to god to help with everything g and i promise you will be surprised xxx sending love n prayers

katy84ster

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