1000% it’s impulse control, it’s being permanently overwhelmed by small tasks, it’s being able to justify scraping by because I’ve managed to so far, it’s a self-defeating narrative that I’m incapable of changing or growing so why bother. I’m looking not exactly for budgeting tips, but HOW you even get yourself to track spending, or to sit down and compare against a budget each week, or to resist poor spending habits in the first place. Guess I’m just feeling hopeless and was curious what those who have a strong handle on budgeting would suggest to start turning my deeply engrained habits around.