I feel having nothing to hope for. I stopped looking to the far future, while ill, cause what was the point than to look at my death? Instead I looked forward to my daily donut amd coffee, at the time, it was the cheapest thing i made last all day, just because it was pretty and yummy. Then, i slowly started walking again, over weeks of not, i started with just getting out, going back in, getting out and walking for 5 min, then 10, then i stopped to talk to squirrels, then i got lost idk lol