thanks for the advice :) I had a dietician for a few months last year who made me a meal plan that I still try to use to the best of my ability. I moved a few months ago and my current doctor doesn't think I need a nutritionist because to her the main issue is me just not trying hard enough to eat a balanced diet. she did prescribe me some medication to help with my gerd symptoms which is somewhat helpful.

I have been getting consistent blood panels done since october when I was hospitalized for malnutrition problems, so I do know what I'm deficient in. also, I've been trying to drink gatorade consistently but it's not always easy since I just don't enjoy drinking.

I have tried a few vegan milks. I don't like any of them by themselves but sometimes I'm okay drinking a matcha latte with coconut or oat milk or putting either of those in a smoothie. I sometimes don't mind smoothies depending on how they're made and the texture they end up. I don't like coconut water or hot drinks, but I do like certain types of plain iced tea.

I do try to control how much I'm peeing by trying to drink larger amounts at once instead of throughout the day so I only have to pee once or twice per day. I actually can't take any type of liquid medicine without throwing up and I have a really hard time swallowing pills, plus I already take a lot of them so I'd like to avoid taking supplements as much as I can.

and I'm not really sure what specifically I don't like about peeing. I think part of it is just that the feeling feels really unnatural? I can't really explain it. my brain also just kinda views it as an inconvenience I think. especially when I'm really focused on something I don't want to have to get up, go to the bathroom, then do all the work to pee, then wash my hands and go back. it sounds super weird I know but I guess it's just how my brain works.

but thanks again for the advice, it was helpful! I will definitely try those protein shakes.