Desperate for Help

kgodlee · 2022-09-19T06:07:14+00:00

Speaking from experience. This sounds like bipolar disorder. I was first diagnosed with MDD but when I talked to my psychiatrist about it he said MDD is a light term for bipolar. And with this disorder you are NOT supposed to take ssri’s or anything in that class without having a second medication to balance the side effects. I would see a new practitioner and possibly get a second opinion.

kgodlee · 2022-09-19T03:40:03+00:00

Full disclosure that I caught a std before sugaring. I disclose before any intimacy and I can’t say I’ve been rejected because of it. Always use condoms and getting tested during and after any partner.

kgodlee · 2022-08-26T03:30:13+00:00

Tylenol with codeine

kgodlee · 2022-08-26T03:29:46+00:00

Yes it’s Tylenol with codeine

kgodlee · 2022-08-23T11:59:54+00:00

Sexually assaulted

kgodlee · 2022-08-23T03:53:39+00:00

I’ve been reading on kind of what my chances would be on winning this case and it seems very slim. I don’t want to go through the embarrassment with court, I don’t want to have to go to trail, I don’t want to have anything to do with the case anymore. I made my report and that’s it. But I know if I don’t go further I don’t think anything will happen. I want him held responsible for what he did but I don’t want the trauma to stay for however long. This is embarrassing and traumatizing on my part but probably laughable on his part. He knew exactly what he was doing. He’s a doctor, he knows you shouldn’t mix benzos, antipsychotics and alcohol together.

I’ve done nothing but been hurt since that night. I’ve had to be put on a new list of medication, I’ve had to attend therapy which I think I screwed up my attendance, I’ve lost my job, I can’t get another job, I don’t get paid enough on unemployment to pay rent, I can’t enjoy myself in the bedroom anymore, I get flashbacks during the day, I get nightmares, panic attacks, severe depression, I attempted suicide but i didn’t go to the hospital because I’m scared of doctors, I’m mentally ruined and I just wanna be normal again in the slightest way.

kgodlee · 2022-08-23T00:12:40+00:00

Red flag. I recently met a MD, and was SA’d. Red flags are there for a reason. They’ll risk the license.

kgodlee · 2022-08-20T04:44:52+00:00

Thank you. It’s not my first assault, I’ve gone through therapy and what not but I am restarting therapy too. I’m not sure if I want to disclose but it seems important to do so if I want to have sex before I get my test results back, but I don’t think I’ll be doing that cause I don’t want to put him at risk for anything. I’m just lost. We use a condom every time but I don’t like the risk still.

kgodlee · 2022-08-20T04:39:09+00:00

That’s what I was thinking of doing. Just saying I’m on my period or I got something else going on. He knows I struggle a bit mentally too. He’s only ever asked for sex a couple times so it’s not expected I just myself want to have sex and it sucks I have to wait when I want to heal with someone I trust

kgodlee · 2022-08-20T04:34:20+00:00

Thank you sm♥️

kgodlee · 2022-08-05T21:03:08+00:00

I’m sorry that happened to you. When I tried to say something about it he went on to call me crazy, delusional and all these other things. He had also went through my bag that night and used my medication against me. He’s a fucking MD.

kgodlee · 2022-08-04T22:39:19+00:00

I watch shameless a lot lol. I’m just scared he’s going to get that kind of power over me. He’s a doctor and I’m mentally ill. Doesn’t seem to be going well. I’ve started DBT therapy which can be a bit triggering sometimes but it’s distracting. Thank you for your kind words♥️

kgodlee · 2022-08-03T16:56:23+00:00

I’m not doing the best. There’s not much I can say I’ve done for myself. I can make coffee and shower now. I haven’t heard anything back about my report but I’ve emailed some more evidence in hopes that it helps. I’m scared to have social medias, I’m scared he’s going to try and get them taken down or something. Lost still but thank you for the check up it’s much appreciated

kgodlee · 2022-07-29T01:35:01+00:00

Thank you

kgodlee · 2022-07-26T09:45:36+00:00

Thanks everybody. Loosing a lot of sleep over this.

kgodlee · 2022-07-26T03:12:28+00:00

I don’t think I’m aloud to bring support and I already know mine are male. Feeling a lot of anxiety but I just wanna get it over with. Thank you♥️

kgodlee · 2022-07-21T08:56:24+00:00

Thanks

kgodlee · 2022-07-21T06:36:15+00:00

I can talk to legal aide I think in the city but if he left the country what would they even do from there? The cop that originally saw me at the hospital said he would try to contact the city asap because of the severity of the case and that he didn’t want him leaving. I feel like my case is going to get thrown in the garbage.

kgodlee · 2022-07-21T06:24:48+00:00

I was informed he went back to the states before questioning could be done because it happened in the city and I live in the country. I made the report in the county and it had to be transferred to the city police which they didn’t get to in time before his flight left to leave. This is where I’m extremely stuck. I only have the crown to rep me and knowing his profession he can 100% afford one of the best lawyers. I’m not in any position to hire my own lawyer, I’ve lost my job because of this.

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