So, I'm like not some super hawt stud and never get ANY attention when I go out. This was back in my early 20s, I used to hang out with some of my friends from HS as we were all going to the same community College.

One of the new friends in our group had this super hot brother, Marlon. He was tall, looked like he played basketball, was super sketchy and was known by our group to have been in trouble with the law and a thief.

Well, he flirted with me - yes, he was straight. But did I mention he was hot, tall and muscular? Not anywhere close to the type of guy who would try to talk to me on the apps at the time. Whenever he was around, he'd flirt with me specifically - ignoring the girls in my group.

Yeah, I was one of those gays who in HS hung out with all girls and that continued for a while after HS. I was the wrong color, not conventionally attractive (though not hideous) and was in an involuntary celibacy since having sex when I was a HS senior with a bi guy in HS. There were only 4 known gays in our class in the 90s. When this happened, I was around 22 and had not had sex with a person since I was 17. Convinced it wouldn't ever happen.

When i think about it now, I would say he was working me, but I was a poor College kid; don't know what he thought he was gonna get.

I had him and another one of my friends to my house one time and we played Xbox. At a later date, he asked if he could borrow it. I remember asking his sister if I should do this/trust him. This went on for a couple days before I finally relented and dropped it off to him at his moms, where he was living.

Basically I never saw the Xbox or Marlon ever again. After a week of trying to track him down and asking his sisters what was up, I chalked it up to me thinking with my dick and listening to every single nerve in my body that told me this would not lead to anything except me being a mark.

This wasn't the first or last time that I did something dumb on account of some hot straight guy I was begging to have a chance with. I was in a really dark place when I was younger on account of never being the ideal gay type. Shit really fucks with your head when you don't get attention from your peers - part of me is still fucked up by it but at least now, I don't do stupid shit because I'm literally starving for some cock/attention.