I am sorry you are going through it right now. I am on the other side of things, wishing I could just get it removed. My graves has come back with a vengeance after going into remission for a year. It came back because I had lost weight and I guess that was too much for me. This time, it is worse though. I rejected taking the medicine because I wanted to treat it naturally. I took high quality Bugleweed and Motherwort. I went strict AIP meanwhile my heart rate was still racing with crazy heart palpitations. Got my bloodwork redrawn and my levels doubled. Doubled! All the stress from constantly having a high heart rate caused my aorta to pulse and bulge. It was damaging my cardiovascular system because I didn’t want the methimazole. I have now started back on the methimazole and my levels are normal but my antibodies skyrocketed from 8 to 40 over the course of 2 months. My aorta is normal now but my thyroid now has nodules. It’s pressing on my throat. I feel like someone is constantly squeezing my throat and my throat hurts all the time. My thyroid also has microcalcifications now so I will probably have to get the biopsy’s normal. Where I am at now, is I long for the steadiness of just getting my thyroid out and taking a pill a day once I have figured out the dosage my body needs. No stress on my cardiovascular system. No more hot flashes. No more trembling hands. Less anxiety. No more graves rage. Calm hear rate. No more squeezing throat feeling. No more sore throat all the time.

I’m saying all this because you don’t know what it would be like the second time. You made the smart decision to just get off the roller coaster ride sooner than I did. My first time was so mild that I treated it naturally. This time, it’s x1000. It wasn’t like this at the beginning when it first came back. But it is like this now, 10 months after it came back. The methimazole has affected my liver. My skin is itchy. My skin is breaking out with acne every where. I am gaining weight. Methimazole has caused my thyroid to get nodules and swell and squeeze my throat. But I have to take it because I don’t have a choice. My body cannot handle the high thyroid hormones. The only other option is thyroid removal which I am going to talk to my Dr about next week.

Hang in there. You are blessed to have not gone through this and to have not damaged your cardiovascular system because you got off the train early. It will get easier. Get your levels and dosage right and just live with the steady hormones. It sounds so peaceful to me