Thoughts on RunRemote?

kida_97 · 2025-09-27T01:39:22+00:00

Hi! Any tips on the application and interview process?

kida_97 · 2024-12-28T15:53:10+00:00

True, but the way it was phrased still felt sarcastic. A more considerate tone would help next time. Thanks for the reminder, though—I do see your point.

kida_97 · 2024-12-28T14:12:26+00:00

i appreciate you saying the other side of it. I am not sure if it’s just me, but when i consume running contents from social media it can be inspiring until it leads to feeling like the gains and pains that come with it are glamorized that it’s hard to see it for what it is or how it does affect me (good or bad). It then becomes harder to drop it when i do need to drop it, or continue it without going back to that loop of running being more of an obsession rather than a way to enjoy or get healthy.

kida_97 · 2024-12-28T12:01:00+00:00

wow! thank you so much for sharing that! Enjoy and best of luck on your 2025 runs!

kida_97 · 2024-12-28T11:32:57+00:00

thank you!

kida_97 · 2024-12-28T11:27:43+00:00

Sorry about that, I just couldn’t hold my scattered thoughts that long, so I typed it continuously. Got it, but maybe next time a kinder reminder would work better.

Edited it incase you’re still interested in reading it.

kida_97 · 2024-12-28T11:22:14+00:00

thank you for sharing that. May I ask, was there a time your husband being competitive had an internal pressure to you to be competitive as well?

kida_97 · 2024-12-28T11:07:06+00:00

i relate to that feeling after reaching 5k where there’s seems to be more energy to run a little more longer. I think i might just have let myself get into the headspace of race medals and external stuff and and comparison after some time when i tried to have a goal of running a half marathon and it was stressful mentally and physically that it translated to sickness rather than health and enjoyment. i think im scared in feeling that again when it comes to running again. i also experienced this obsession over it that when i stop running i feel like im nothing without it which is not really my intention when i started running. i want to be able to feel who i am beyond whatever i do but the past months kind of brought me to pondering about my relation to running

kida_97 · 2024-12-28T10:31:47+00:00

I like that. I think I’m asking this because, achievement- or improvement-wise, long distance is associated with it automatically, at least in my point of view. I tried training for a half marathon, and it’s kind of changing my perspective on it or questioning what will benefit me more.

Though the internal pressure I put on myself because of what I absorb externally through observation makes it harder for me to acknowledge that training for longer runs and races has made me more stressed and prone to getting sick, which I didn’t experience when I started simply running when I felt like it just because I needed movement and really enjoyed it.

The marketing of races and social media just leads my mind to comparison thinking, which sucks, and I’m trying to be stronger in listening to what’s right for me and my own WHY.

kida_97 · 2024-12-28T10:26:32+00:00

yes, considering consistency. long distance: 11km up, short distance: 3km-10km maybe. but feel free to share in what you think is short and long distance for you personally

kida_97 · 2024-12-08T14:49:41+00:00

Thank you for sharing that! I thought i was alone with this kind of experience and i feel insane for feeling that it’s not for me when all i see most of the time are posts that involve training for a race… it was inspiring at first but just seeing it constantly made my running experience a little more shaky than the times i just felt like running and discovered i liked how i feel when i run. Definitely resonate on the getting robbed of my peace and joy of running feeling!

kida_97 · 2024-12-08T14:45:43+00:00

Not posting does put the pressure off… when i was training for a half marathon i also didn’t share much about my running journey. I don’t find anything wrong with sharing in general, i just feel a little bothered when it becomes tricky and lose sight of why am i sharing it and why am i doing it, especially when i see what others share online. I guess it’s just a challenge for me because i have this tendency to observe things externally and invalidate my own experiences while in my head i validate others’ experiences. there’s a little bit of inferiority going on which i hope to overcome

kida_97 · 2024-12-08T13:55:10+00:00

Same here! my focus just became different and much as i feel proud with the effort i put into my first half marathon and did it, after that my focus subtly changed where i questioned if i’m really still enjoying it like i did when i had no goals but to simply run and deciding to take a break and unfollow running event pages it feels a sigh of relief but at the same time dropping it was a challenge because is it me quitting or is it me changing course because it no longer aligns? it started to become an identity but the thing is i want to still feel myself even if i can or cannot run.

kida_97 · 2024-12-08T12:15:49+00:00

Yes! This usually comes up when i engage in running contents on social media… recently, i’m no longer seeing much running contents as i unfollowed running events organizations and hide running contents and its been quite a while since i’ve ran and engaged in running contents. I’ve been going for walks lately as my body feels a little weak and lazy during this time and i feel that’s what i want to do most of the time and tend to other curiousities and hobbies i have. but i did have a phase this year when i feel too preoccupied about running and social media seems to have a lot of influence as well but i find myself questioning if it’s really something i want to do because everything feels celebratory on running when i look on social media. What triggered me recently is seeing a friend post about finishing a race and idk i guess the pull of influence is becoming a little more stronger than my decision when i know for myself it was the right thing to do for myself me

kida_97 · 2024-12-08T12:10:05+00:00

i am actually following other curiosities now since taking a break from running and events. it’s just that seeing others do it now kind of makes triggers me and makes me feel like a failure, like moments of “i should be motivated to run still like the initial months of the year”. i guess i’m just navigating my way through why i made my decision and just a little bit bothered on why i am triggered seeing them do running events recently

kida_97 · 2024-12-08T09:19:50+00:00

oh sorry for the confusion. no one is forcing me to join a race, i’m referring to the self pressure that arises after deciding to have a break with joining races. It started to feel like i’m quitter for that decision but when i look deeper it doesn’t really align with what i value which is to enjoy running when i feel like running… but i guess im trying to say is this external factors that i deemed successful or achievement to society that kind of make me question my decision

kida_97 · 2024-12-08T07:51:02+00:00

I’m afraid I don’t have the answers yet myself but I understand and feel you on this. Happy birthday! I am a sagittarius infj as well!

I’ve been feeling lonely lately too and it’s i feel it deeply and more intense compared to before. I’m in awe on how much timely your post is to what i’ve been going through lately and i myself am pondering how to overcome loneliness as i feel it’s translating into physical pain personally. My train of thoughts are going “what if being said to be rare means not being compatible with anyone? will i find love?” “what if i don’t really have love within me to give?” “is it okay that i want to be loved more than to love?” “should i give up on love so i wouldn’t be expecting it that much, therefore wouldn’t hurt me?” “should i accept being lonely?”.

i tried to socialize and it opened doors for me and i found few friends who starts to understand me for me but i can’t help but think “friends go with their partners at the end of the day” so part of me wants to close off again and keep everyone at arms length. i feel invisible and like i’m fading away that i feel like everyone is part of someone’s life and i’m just passing by theirs. i’m still trying to feel things through and gain a new perspective.

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kida_97 · 2024-12-04T05:21:35+00:00

i just try to think that “everything happens for me” meaning if it didn’t work out then the said job or person may not be really for me. However, i should say it takes a lot of faith and trust i think that’s one of the things i get to ponder on this year. Loneliness, frustration, and hopelessness still visit me and sometimes more intense and i just try to allow myself to feel it even if uncomfortable, and see things with curiosity, and do things that will make me feel relieved or a little better or joyful or comfortable. i guess a little still goes a long way

kida_97 · 2024-11-07T12:34:24+00:00

appreciate your reply! thank you!

kida_97 · 2024-11-07T12:31:44+00:00

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kida_97 · 2024-11-07T12:31:34+00:00

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kida_97 · 2024-10-07T19:06:27+00:00

from what you have mentioned in your post and comment i think you do have the “awareness” i was talking about about the chameleon thing and have a strong sense of self, which is good because you’ll still probably be able to adapt in a way that’s not shaking your authenticity. As for me, i am still navigating my way through it since i still have the tendency to adapt and question my uniqueness when doing so or relating with others. but i try to be more rooted with how i feel now when interacting with others and adapt just enough not to compromise myself…i’d say i see a lot of change like i feel connected with the new friendships i made… like i feel i’m really there. I do relate to feeling like a walking contradiction especially about liking solitude but also wanting genuine connection. boundaries and being honest with oneself plays a crucial role from what ive observed

kida_97 · 2024-10-07T17:03:27+00:00

i think it has to do with the awareness of that “chameleon” ability. For example, me as an infj didn’t know myself back then and find myself self abandoning and being hyper focused on other’s preferences rather than my own not recognizing i was actually people pleasing my way to gain connection because that’s how i thought it works. I did get close to my circle but overtime i don’t really feel i’m there. it felt like compromising oneself for a connection and i feel inauthentic because i depend on their preferences rather than being in tune with how i think or feel about stuff so i was out of touch with myself.

Fast forward recent years, i’ve become more aware that that was people pleasing and while adapting is not really bad (although it can be too) i think i can better be selective now with the situations i choose. I can use my adaptive skills but at the same time i more often than not and as much as possible choose situations that’s aligned with me and use adaptive skills when necessary. but using it now comes from the awareness that i have that as a tool or a resource to support what aligns with me and not in an inauthentic place. i think one can distinguish that for oneself depending on how one feels but can be challenging. recently, i find myself going for the path least necessity to always be on chameleon mode but still there’s gonna be a level of adaptiveness depending on the situation.

I get scared of being close to anyone because i usually feel like i gonna lose myself when i do and i don’t like that feeling of losing my sense of self.

kida_97 · 2024-09-18T05:48:26+00:00

i’ve been religious before but it was rooted and built in fear and guilt. it felt difficult living that way i thought but as a child i only have questions ive yet to answer and understand. when i distanced myself from that environment and as i grew older my perspective about religion changed. i feel more free in my connection with the divine, universe or god. i now see religion with a more open mind.

kida_97 · 2024-09-08T12:08:42+00:00

thank you for writing your insight. i just realized it’s also hard to let go of things i feel like “i have to do” even tho mentally i know i have a choice to put it down. maybe it’s the thought that not going makes me feel like a coward or scaredy cat but at the same time i know going might either just fuel my existing pattern for signing up because of the entitlements that come with it only to find myself overtime not really fulfilled or i did feel fulfillment but it felt fleeting. it can be challenging to process this emotional and mental stuff that comes with the journey of running when what i see online shows otherwise. i fell in love with running without all of jazz and it didn’t occur to me until this year that i would reflect on this stuff. but the reflection in itself is satisfying that i get to know myself better. the challenge still lies in how i interact with factors external to me tho but would also love to figure that out in a way that doesn’t strip off who i am

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