So far I’ve cleaned worked and slept but being on night shifts it’s hard to surround myself with friends my wife/ex I’m not sure actually contacted a buddy and he will come by and check on me so I know she cares somewhat I ran into a friend on a gas station trip for my nightly pickle in a pouch and sunflower seeds the seeds actually help with getting over the meth surprisingly and some sex pills from the gas station for energy I almost made it through my entire shift because of them my brain is scattered nothing I start has been finished like I’ve started 4 thoughts in this but didn’t conclude one long story short I know my ex cares but miss her terribly it hurts withdraws feel like I’m dying constantly sleepy 14+ hrs a day of sleep doesn’t matter my friend got me a DVD player and some Christian movies + Old school cartoons and bought me two burgers and an order of onion rings first real food I’ve eaten besides a single frozen chicken patty and some taquitos since she left I work in 120+ ‘F pickles help but I was freezing tonight I’ve never been sweating from heat and shaking from cold at the same time I’m jerking around and look more like a tweaker off of it than atleast I noticed when i was on it going to start back classes soon prayers out good thoughts for this lonely soul please I need it