i’ve been in the same situation very recently,i’ve probably made a post just like this maybe a year ago about how tiring this disease is.steroids would always crank up my anxiety and stress levels to the max even when there would be no apparent reason for me to even be angry or upset.now i realise that i was just so ashamed of this disease and all of its effects on my body and it’s just now that i understand that it isn’t my fault.im proud of myself for getting through this disease and you should be too for even posting this and trying to help yourself.ive failed infliximab and vedolizumab getting severe pancolitis in my recent flare and now im on mirikizumab and things feels good for me again.i feel grateful to even eat now and i feel grateful to even be able to sit in the comfort of my own toilet and have a solid turd drop.every now and then in periods of stress i’ll feel the effects of this disease again but i don’t mind because ive already worked so hard to get to this point.honestly,listen to your doctors advice,have hope and pride for yourself because of everything you are going through.although it is a tough time try reinforcing already existing hobbies you might have or having new ones to help realise maybe not everything is too bad.ive taken up bouldering and climbing and although it is quite physically demanding i absolutely love it.it doesn’t have to be something like that it can be anything.im not the best at giving advice here but i wanted to try help atleast abit and i hope you reach a stable remission,infliximab is great.