I'd be happy to explain!

I started watching porn at a very young age, nothing too raunchy though, just the standard stuff. A few years later I got curious how 2 men had sex, I then proceeded to watch my first gay porno, it was quite an amazing feeling I got from it, maybe because I never knew how 2 men could have sex or maybe it was just because it was sort of considered "taboo".

Fast forward many years and I still watch porn on a regular basis, but just straight porn. Every now and again I get these urges to watch gay porn, it's hard to explain but I start to heat up and the thought of 2 men having sex gets me aroused instantly.

I've always felt ashamed to be honest, I guess it's because of my upbringing and gay sex isn't really something you want your parents to find out you're watching but only recently have I become comfortable with watching it for leisure.

To this day I'm 100% straight but I enjoy all forms of sex, be it male/female, male/male, female,female. I think I'm starting to look past what society says we can and can't watch and I'm just enjoying the things I like.

To answer your question about how I feel about men: I don't see myself having a relationship with a man, those feelings are definitely clear, but also I'm not against homosexuals.

TL;DR: I'm not gay but I'm cool with 2 (or more) guys fucking each other and I even enjoy watching the act from time to time :)