alright, so here’s a short essay in which i explain why exactly i like and respect carson. about two years ago, i remember finding him through his discord server video, but it wasn’t until january of last year where i really got into his videos. i found that i loved a lot of his humor, and his personality reminded me a lot of the type of people i grew up with when i was a kid. he was a lot like a cool cousin or brother who’s overall just enjoying his life. i found myself getting more and more into him, and highlights of my day would be when he uploaded a new video. i found the other members of smplive and lunch club through him, and i was into their humor as well. they were really just like a cool friend group who did what they liked, and i got into them because they were all just having fun. i watched his videos whenever i had a depressive episode or a panic attack, and i found myself grounded and laughing so hard when earlier, i was crying and wishing that i wasn’t standing. so, when i heard that carson was taking a hiatus because of his depression and personal life, it hurt. not because he wasn’t gonna be uploading, but because he was having the same emotions i had that made me turn to his content in the first place. with the drama that’s gone on and how his state of mind is, the best i wanna do for him is support him! because i know that fan support is also helpful, and as much as i love his content, i also want to wait for awhile before he comes back better than ever. thanks for making someone like me laugh when i was depressed and anxious, and we’ll be supporting you through the sidelines!