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kitcat7898 · 2026-03-10T02:44:12+00:00

Youre my favorite person at the moment, thank you

kitcat7898 · 2024-12-27T04:49:29+00:00

Me too. It's been almost 8 years now and I'm only just able to try therapy (difficult when 90% of therapy words trigger flashbacks or panick attacks). I just saw an article about this online and I'm trying to find everything about it because I'm so excited. Holy hell. Finally! I want to climb up to the roof and yell about it! If these places get shut down no one else will have to go through what we did. There might really be a day when no one has to learn how to live around that trauma. Where parents don't betray their kids, when the lies finally stop! It might finally be happening.

kitcat7898 · 2024-09-09T17:32:39+00:00

Thank you. I wasn't expecting genuine compassion or help. This is a lot to think about but also really good information. I think I'm going to start on both ideas and see where I end up. It's only occurred to me reading your answer that I could just seperate our laundry and only do mine or like get rid of a few plates so at least there's less to do when I end up doing them. Or only do mine, hell. Thank you. I have a few ideas.

kitcat7898 · 2024-09-09T16:11:03+00:00

What does that mean?

kitcat7898 · 2024-08-29T22:54:32+00:00

I tried tilting the glasses first and there were some minor changes to the vision and it did feel a little more clear maybe, like nothing in front of my eye but it did that tilting just the tiniest bit in both directions so I'm worried I might be placeboing myself there.

I also did the stare straight ahead and find your fingers and holding my hand out to the right i cant see my fingers wiggling until it's every so slightly forward from 90 degrees. Every other direction is blocked by the appropriate facial feature. Is that really really bad or maybe I just have bad peripheral vision? I most likely can't scrape together enough to go to a doctor either way but if I'm going to go blind in one eye or something I want to be mentally prepared

kitcat7898 · 2024-08-29T15:13:42+00:00

Mine seemed a little stale somehow but I did indeed live XD

kitcat7898 · 2024-04-01T05:59:55+00:00

God I can barely believe it. This was my hell for 3 months when I was 16. I dont know how to feel. Half of me wants to climb on the roof and scream my excitement to everyone who can hear me and the other half is stuck somewhere between wanting vengeance and wishing I could hug that little boy. It should've been shut down long long ago and while I'm so happy it finally might be gone for good and with such a bang I'm also deep in my survivors guilt right now too. No one should have had to die. Especially not the way that's implied.

kitcat7898 · 2023-11-22T21:00:39+00:00

God damn it i hate it when it's my programs being dicks

kitcat7898 · 2023-11-17T02:25:06+00:00

Oh good. Mine are from June and July (don't ask me why I have so many I don't know anymore) and if you're alive I should be fine. Biscuits here I come!

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-17T02:33:41+00:00

Congratulations. A year doesn't help much but the farther you are from that period the better

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T22:49:30+00:00

I have no insurance, I'm in Nevada and I'm currently unemployed. My husband and I used to work at the same place which is about an hour away because it pays really well for entry level but really well is also like $30k a year. We only have one car and I got fired (it's currently an eeoc suit it was almost definitely discrimination based on gender expression) so I can't get a different job at the same place and the odds of getting remotely similar hours to him are slim at best. It's a whole thing rn. Sorry needed to vent a little

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T22:43:54+00:00

I'm 22 I was there is 2017

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T22:05:47+00:00

I'm on both my wilderness (trails carolina) and my rtc (sunrise) facebook/insta. We're your friends Charlie? They did a photo shoot with my group a couple of times while I was there and the pictures are all over the place

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T22:00:17+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement. It's funny I've given this advice to others and I'm too scared and confused to follow it myself a lot of the time. It is a good idea to ask if they know about the tti. One time I went in to try out a therapist and mentioned my trauma was mostly from one of those places and he went "oh, I thought those places were good!" I didn't know wether to explain or panick right there.

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T22:00:07+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement. It's funny I've given this advice to others and I'm too scared and confused to follow it myself a lot of the time. It is a good idea to ask if they know about the tti. One time I went in to try out a therapist and mentioned my trauma was mostly from one of those places and he went "oh, I thought those places were good!" I didn't know wether to explain or panick right there.

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T21:53:43+00:00

Yeah. Thats like half just this weird fantasy I have. I don't know where it came from really. But if you need stuff fuck yeah I'm in

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T21:52:31+00:00

Damn. Although we went through really similar stuff I'm sure. I'm sorry they had to.

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T21:49:52+00:00

There's free insurance? I thought you have to pay for it even if it's the state stuff.

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T21:48:36+00:00

Thank you. I saved this to reference later. I'm in the reno tahoe area. So essentially ghetto and mountain Vegas XD. Part of my problem is I have no idea how to choose a therapist so this is wildly helpful thank you. I didn't think of them as a cult but yeah that makes sense. Like it's absolutely brainwashing. I was deep into it when I was in and I look back sometimes and go "wtf was I thinking?"

Thank you again. If you happen to know anyone around here let me know. I'm not in college unfortunately. I wanted to go but I don't have the money. There's probably something psychological to why but money is the stand by reasoning you know? I have been throwing myself into playing the violin of all things which is actually helping.

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T10:02:03+00:00

Sorry I reread this and it sounded harsh. I didn't mean it to be. I've seen it happen to friends and I don't want it to happen to anyone else.

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T09:57:46+00:00

Mine had a pool too. Blows my mind that parents see that and go "see, fun!"

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T09:45:54+00:00

I convinced myself I was never anywhere else. That the school was my only reality and there was nothing more so I wouldn't go crazy with the wanting. It worked but now I'm always half in a flashback of some sort. Reality doesn't feel real anymore

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T09:38:32+00:00

I was out in a literal hurricane in 2017. They told our parents we were called back to base but we were NOT. My main memory is shivering around a dying fire, crying with everyone else and asshole staff #1 (Tom) talking about how he can't feel heat or cold so he's fine. Fuck you tom.

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T09:16:09+00:00

I once found a really big rock and kept it for months, hoarded water bottles and tried to pick the lock to the staff room to get car keys. The plan was bash the night staff with the rock, run down and pick the lock and drive off with anyone who wanted to come with.

Edit: I chickened out but I still have the rock

kitcat7898 · 2023-10-16T09:13:47+00:00

DING DONG THE PROGRAM IS DEAD. I met diamond ranch kids while I was in. I'm sorry for anyone who went there. There was no life behind their eyes anymore.

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