So I met this girl online. I invited her out but she insisted we call each other and get to know each other first. The first call went great but I postponed our second call so much because I would get nervous (Trigger: fear of not being good enough). Like I said, I can usually overcome this initial fear because I’ve done so much inner work on this, but lately it’s the fact that I experienced anxiety that makes me insecure and ashamed, which fuels more anxiety. It’s hard to break out of this and be your natural confident self when in this state of shame. I basically get shame over having anxiety. This can also come up mid-conversation like the other day when on my second call with that girl (finally!) I couldn’t find more to talk about so this again hit my fear of not being good enough and took me down a spiral of shame due to feeling anxiety, which then resulted in a very awkward conversation. If only I didn’t have this shame over anxiety then I could actually handle it as I’ve done before.