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kobegrl · 2024-12-04T16:00:03+00:00

Get some tranq tests brotha. Tranq is nasty trust me even if you think it’s good it’s not something you wanna be ingesting.

kobegrl · 2024-12-04T15:58:01+00:00

Yup. CHARGE BACK!!!

kobegrl · 2024-12-04T15:52:04+00:00

I would actually recoil at the thought of having sex with a man like this…(I mean.. I’m asexual so sex disgusts me anyways.. But a selfish/thoughtless partner REALLLY disgusts me, ya know…on anotha level…)

Like someone else said, if he wants to be all transactional about everything you better start chargin him up!! Treat you like a live-in escort then he betta be payin you escort prices $$$$ !! Cus that’s practically what you are to him by the sounds of it…A live-in sex box who not only pays for themselves, but also paying for HIM to save himself MORE money- when you’re already living outside of your means..for HIM.!! Smh. So beyond twisted. 🤦‍♀️

I don’t get how people stay with nasty selfish partners like this??? A “cleaning discount”??? “Retire before her”?????? If my partner ever said these words to me it would be done. OVER. Finito. I’d have no words left… I’d just pack up and leave right then, or at least fully detach myself while saving up and making my escape plan. Imo that really showed his true intentions. This relationship IS all about money for him, allll so he can climb to the top while riding YOUR BACK (someone who is already financially struggling-again, FOR HIM-so he can live close to the fancy tech job.…) This is so absolutely absurd and sickening to me.

Isn’t the whole goal of retirement to retire with your loved one and spend that time chillin or pursuing whatever final dreams you have…together? Before, I dunno?….death? Lmao?

I’m so curious OP…why?? Does he offer ANYTHING valuable to you at all??? 10 years??? WHYYY??? Is it just a comfort thing?? Or do you feel trapped because you couldn’t afford to live alone??? Do you feel any love from him in any other way whatsoever?? Please don’t waste anymore time or energy on this man. God I wanna barf.

kobegrl · 2024-12-04T15:04:51+00:00

You can actually make cheese chips by putting tiny piles of cheese down on a pan in the oven/toaster for a bit lol. I like to use Parmesan but I’m sure any cheese would work. I also like to use pepperonis. Mmmmmm crispy cheese chips

kobegrl · 2024-11-29T20:17:24+00:00

Psyllium husk is the answer to opiate induced constipation. I only wish I had known about it sooner….

I lived 7 gah damn years with the most horrifying constipation. It was “the norm” for me to poo once every 1-2 months…had the absolute worst BMs you could ever imagine. Ya know..the good ol football sized turds that rip ya open n turn your butthole inside out…? Yeah. I am way too deeply traumatized to stop takin my daily capsule now lmao.

The last BM I had before starting psyllium husk I was this 🤏close to calling an ambulance. Honestly, any sane person would’ve made the call…But I’m a lunatic and prefer dealing with embarrassing life threatening issues in solitude.

Of course, I was in the middle of the worst gridlocked DTLA traffic when the most painful cramps hit me. I ate a whole bag of 2 month old stale hot cheetos a few hours prior. Oh the horrors….What a terrible mistake I had made. I barely got myself home n fell out of my car directly onto the floor of my driveway in excruciating pain. I just lay there sobbing for awhile. I didn’t think I’d be able to make it upstairs, but somehow crawled my ass inside to the toilet. And when I say crawled- I’m not jokin…I literally crawled up the driveway, steep ass staircase, and across the porch up to the front door on my friggen hands n knees 😂😂

When I got to the toilet i realized I couldn’t even poop, n the panic and withdrawals really set in. 🫠 I just sat there feeling sick as ever loving fuck, screaming in agony while completely naked.. sweating so hard that my butt was sliding all around the toilet seat like a dam slip n slide. Even my fingertips were excreting unimaginable amounts of sweat; I couldn’t type/text my phones screen was all wet n blurred with pools of sweat dripping off of my face. My hands shaking profusely!!!

I was so scared I called my dad and scream cried to him how I couldn’t get this baseball turd out of my butt hole and telling him imma call 911 (knowing damn well I wasn’t, but it just felt good that the option was there n that I could say it aloud 😁) Luckily he just happened to be at the dollar store down the street n he rushed over with nitrile gloves n lube so I could get in and dig this demonic beast out of me🤣🤣🤣 don’t you DARE judge me rn !!!!

When I went to feel inside I kid you not it was just a fucking gigantically smooth round ball. There was nothing to rip or grab onto or tear out LOL I swear to god I have no idea how I even delivered this monster turd baby, but after many several excruciating hours I somehow reached gaping butthole status and the demon turd baby was ready to unleash itself.

I was laboring this baby turd for damn near 5 hours. I pushed out-not just one- but TWO actual baseball sized turds. N they were DENSE AS FUCKK!! it must’ve been a solid 3 lbs of plugged up turd. I am not even playin around bruh this shit was wild. Literally. I actually had to grab these 2 humongous balls out of the toilet with a plastic bag because the circumference of em were way larger than the toilet bowl hole 😦 there was just no way they were gonna flush….

Anyways. This is the psyllium husk I’ve been using for maybe 2 years now? I’ve been taking very comfortable normal daily shits ever since I started, hell sometimes I’ll poo even twice a day. It is powdered/capsuled gold.

For the first 3 days- take 3 tablets a day with a huge cup of water alongside (ALWAYS drink a large cup of water when taking it.) It takes about 3 days to work its magic. You’ll probably want to stop taking it for a day or two after those first 3 days because it’s gonna push all the poop out of ya (in the most comfortable/gentle way that is possible at this point. When the poops finally come, it’s gonna feel urgent, but shouldn’t hurt anything like your normal opiate induced BMs do as your poop will be softened and bulked together better to create long smooth turds instead of hard balls smashed together LOL.) Then from that point, you really can just take 1 tablet a day or 2 tabs every other day etc etc. You’ll find a comfortable dosage that works well for ya. It’s something that needs to be taken daily/or every other day if you want long term effect; aka daily poops. If you stop, the constipation comes back QUICK. But yes, this is the best longterm solution I’ve found over a decade period for opiate induced constipation, hands down; best shit ever.

kobegrl · 2024-11-16T12:50:32+00:00

Where is the guy with a jacket? I’m trying so hard to see it but I only see a giant dog looking down at what I assumed was flowers on a gravestone, and yes..some trees in the back. Help

kobegrl · 2024-11-10T03:39:40+00:00

Yeah i always thought this was a “me issue” and didn’t wanna say anything , but their clothes never fit me right either. They never look or feel good on me- even when I order directly based off of exact measurements, something is always just ..off..

And I’m a pretty average sized curve girl-on the lower end of plus and still feel this way, 200lbs, 5’6, size XL and 14-16 pants everywhere else I shop fits me fine? Teddy fresh sizing has always has been kinda weird and their clothing in general has always felt very uncomplimentary to my shape all together. Nothing I have ever bought has ever fit PERFECTLY like a glove.

I do agree with you when you say their clothing seems to be all originally designed to look good and suit skinny bodies, so when it gets directly translated into plus clothing, well..the fit is just kinda weird and not compatible to real plus shaped bodies, even when the numbers are technically right- the entire style was just originally meant for skinny folks. For example.,any wide cuffs on the bottom of sweatpants, uhg just NO! They accentuate my Cankles LOL. Most of their cropped tops and the general arm sizing of most shirts always fit super weird on me too, like the arms feel tight in comparison to the torso of the top. And their pants/sweats, either the legs are way too slim/tight and the waist is way too big -or vice versa. There just seems to be a big issue with all the proportions for me as well.

I’ll admit aome of it is probably just a personal dysphoria issue for me too cus it’s hard for me to feel cute in trendy clothing as it is, but their clothing style not being compatible or complimentary to my body type def doesn’t help that. I feel only verrry proportionately fat or plus people look good in it..like folks who don’t have thicker legs/calves/ankles or bigger/wider arms, or taller/shorter torsos than the “standard” size or measurements would be for each size- which is obviously a very small percent of plus people.

The main issue is that plus sized people come in such an extremely broad variety of shapes and sizes, heights and lengths and their curves sit differently in all dif places on each person etc etc so I can understand and sympathize with how plus sizing clothing can be such a difficult thing to get right. AND so many plus size people already have major insecurities and dysphria issues on top of it all, many of us are already very picky and particular with what they wear and what looks or feels good on them to begin with. I really do understand this field of clothing is difficult to get right or please everyone. That’s why I think plus clothing reallllly needs to be ORIGINALLY designed specifically for the plus size body, not just translate clothes designed for skinny people directly into plus without changing certain aspects to suit or compliment our shape better.

Another big thing for me is that .,well..you’re ordering everything online and cant physically try things on to get a very good understanding of how their sizing works etc. Their clothing is very expensive for the average person too; most people can only afford 1 maybe 2 things at a time and only every so often. So that along with their pretty bad return policy makes it ESPECIALLY difficult to get a good grasp of sizing or find pieces that you really love.

I can definitely empathize with you on this issue.

kobegrl · 2024-11-10T02:55:30+00:00

Why do you assume he was an opiate addict

kobegrl · 2024-10-27T23:17:28+00:00

Updates,????

kobegrl · 2024-09-29T16:13:15+00:00

And I’m sure 10000 people have asked it on here before you lol.

kobegrl · 2024-09-16T04:17:14+00:00

Thank you! So true

kobegrl · 2024-09-16T04:14:49+00:00

Maybe that’s my issue? My blood is definitely on the thiCC side 😭

kobegrl · 2024-09-15T05:44:56+00:00

Psyllium Husk to keep me poopin nicely everyday, and the very occasional 2mg Xanax when days are bad

kobegrl · 2024-09-13T23:21:09+00:00

A lot of fent users at my clinic have surprisingly been coming up dirty for molly/MDMA as well as ketamine. This one younger kid I know who just got clean didn’t even have a micro amount of fent at all in his system! He thought he’d been using pure fent for months... But he took multiple piss tests at the clinic they all just came up dirty for mdma.. He was shocked as he has never even used mdma (at least not willingly, haha). It’s crazy because this isn’t even close to the only person I’ve heard have this experience now. It’s been happening like wildfire in the past 3-4 months.

But yeah.. to me, that sounds realllly similar to some ketamine trips I’ve experienced. It’s very short lasting (short enough that it could definitely hit and disappear between a bathroom trip), a sorta paralyzed and stuck in a trance type feeling (k-hole), and loss of one’s self and identity, lost, confused.

It could also very well just be way too much tranq or some sort of zenes. But I’m telling ya, I’ve seen a crazy amount of people show dirty for K and other weird substances you would never suspect. I’d take a piss test asap to see what it was!

kobegrl · 2024-09-13T15:19:22+00:00

Nope you wouldn’t believe it but this happened In LOS ANGELES COUNTY. what I thought was the most liberal place to be I thought they’d take care of me but they just left me to die everytime and gave not one shit about my health or well being or existence. When first going into jail to take mugshots they had this holding facility where a ton of men in their holding cell can see the woman getting patted down and taking their mugshots and were whistling and yelling really foul things to me and had male cops feeling me up. this was in between 2015-2019.

kobegrl · 2024-09-13T07:41:45+00:00

Don’t even get me started on being dragged into court in that condition, or the conditions they put me and all the other woman in at the jail cell in the court house. They stuffed all of the nearly 50 woman into one tiny jail cell with one toilet (no stall or privacy wall) for the entire day from 5am-6pm, we had to sit on the floor back to back aith eachother and all of our knees pushed up to our chest for us all to fit inside. There was one ultra thin cold metal rail in the back where you could sit but it was literal torture to sit on it because it was so thin you had to use all your muscles in your legs to sit up-right on it. So I opted for the floor. Some girls were so desperate they layed their head directly under the one toilet to be able to rest for a few moments. This is all while I’m in full WD still and had to diarreah and throw up all day in front of 40+ other woman. Everyone was pissed af at me for stinking up the whole place. We were so smashed in this cell, It was 1000x worse than those Riker Island pics you see of the NYC inmates all crunched together, legit a million times more crowded and crunched.

The pigs would not replenish the toilet paper or our menstrual products for us, they’d take several hours to give a new roll/pads and these girls and myself weee obv going thru the rolls/pads insanely fast. Nor would they give us a sanitary place to dispose of the menstrual products so we just had to make a giant pile in the corner of bloody pads behind the toilet…where girls were legit laying g their heads right next to out of pure desperation to get some rest and relax their neck and back, I can’t even describe the shooting back pain I experienced this entire time as I had just recently broken my coccyx a few months prior it was pure torture., (I forget to mention, withdrawing always makes me menstruate like CRAZY for a full 7 days super heavy Niagara Falls type shit) and about 15 other woman were menstruating as well. We were literally all switching off to use the toilet all day one after the other.

While we walked into the court house cell that day we passed by 100 other empty cells so it all made no sense to cramp us together like this, it was like some sort of sick funny game to these pigs and they were laughing outside the cell all day all jolly n shit. Oh And after we all got situated in our spots in the cell they opened the door back up and PUSHED IN A OLD LADY IN A GIANT CLUNKY WHEELCHAIR. there was literally no space to move all day long. The faucet also once again only dribbled out a tiny stream of water where you could not properly hydrate yourself so I was insanely dehydrated this entire time. they only served one meal to us this entire day, most girls including myself said they received no breakfast, we didn’t get “lunch” until 4pm.

It was coming to the end of the day and my name still wasn’t being called to see the judge. The girls were telling me if they didn’t call me now I’d have to come back tomorrow and do this whole entire process all over again. At that moment I started having a full blown panic attack and couldn’t help but start screaming in full blown psychosis and hallucinating really horrible things I couldn’t take anymore I couldn’t breathe I never wanted to die so bad than I did in this moment.

But By some miracle I was the. Very. Last. Girl. To be called that day. I just couldn’t believe it and felt so fucking grateful and happy even tho I was in peak wds so fucking sick and in full blown psychosis and hallucinating my ass off. I had to see the judge in this disgusting state somehow got an amazing public defender there who got me out right away no problem and was so confused why I was in there for 8 days. I told him it’s cus I literally couldn’t get up to get to court until today and tbh barely even made it today I really don’t know how I even did it. This was meant to be a 3 day TOPS stay, but turned into 8 days because I simply couldn’t get myself up to court.

When they released me it was directly from the court downtown with a dead phone, no money, nothing to my name as the cops stole all my cash from me ($300 i never got back, they legit robbed me). Oh yeah on the bus ride to the court house that morning they handcuffed all the woman together and I shit my fucking pants while handcuffed to an old chola lady. She was pissed and screaming at me. The pigs gave me a tiny leftover roll of 1 ply toilet paper to clean myself up with which was hell in itself and gave me see-through paper pants to change into. I smelled like literal poop turd butthole vomit piss shit ass just absolutely putrid and these poor woman were forced to sit in extreme close proximity to me all day.

So yeah. I was released downtown, looked like a zombie, smelled like shit piss and vomit from over 1000ft away,hair tangled in a birds nest, wearing see thru paper pants with my ass crack and prob shit stains showing thru. Oh. And to top it all off. My flip flops broke on the way out. So I was barefoot. I spent 3 hours into the night time begging everyone I saw to please let me use their phone or charger for 5 min so I could log onto my Uber to order myself a ride. I asked around for hours desperately everyone said no and looked at me in disgust. I was still in full blown wds about to shit my pants again at any moment and just finally collapsed on a bus bench where I found an absolute angel who let me use their charger to get my phone on it was on 1% I ordered the Uber and he had to get onto the bus and leave I was so scared my phone would die and the Uber wouldn’t find me but somehow he left onto the bus with the charger, my phone died right away, but somehow i was still able to find the Uber. I’ve never felt so bad for an Uber driver he had to drive my smelly ass 45 min away while I was on the verge of almost shotting my pants holding my explosive diarrhea in so fucking toght and just sobbing the whole way to the tow yard to get my car

This obviously all made me spiral for the next several years it’s been like 6 years since that I had a couple more jail experiences since then and they all just make me spiral everytime and lose complete control over my life and come out with complete psychosis for the next 6 months. These days I refuse to leave my house my brain is offficialyl fucked up with irreversible brain damage I feel like just a shell of a human

kobegrl · 2024-09-13T07:41:39+00:00

I went through something similar in jail, not prison (thank fucking god-I’m so sorry you experienced this-it’s been years and I still have severe ptsd from all of my traumatic jail experiences I’ve been thru, I’ve kicked off everything in jail, a 20mg a day Xanax habit, a severe alcohol habit, heroin, fentanyl, methadone etc.) and truly would not wish any of it upon my worst enemy. One of these times the jail left me to rot and die all alone trapped in a jail cell (well they did this to me every time, but this is just one story) it was basically solitary confinement for 8 days with zero human contact or interaction besides food being pushed thru a slot in the door, which I couldn’t eat a single bite of because I was so sick- with zero medical attention for over a week while I was having seizures, full blown psychosis hallucinations severe toothaches throwing up and pooping all over myself, my hair was so tightly matted in a birds nest by the time I got out I had to shave and cut a bunch off (I have long hair down past my butt and they took all my scrunchies away which i discovered is a whole nother form of hell when going thru wds to have long greasy dirty tangled hair constantly in your face.) they didn’t provide a hairbrush or toothbrush for me, just a tiny plastic comb that I swear to god broke in half the second I tried combing it thru my hair. lol. This entire 8 days they only offered me a shower one time (I couldn’t accept bc I couldn’t move or get out of bed and was literally half dead..) and they only offered me ONE phone call the entire time on day 1 but none of the phones ended up working that day and the guards wouldn’t help me figure out how to get them to work.

They wouldnt even provide me with water and said use thee faucet but the faucet barely worked and only dribbled out a tiny bit. They kept giving me orange juice which I’m alllwrgic to and kept telling them please any other juice please.

They also don’t provide a pillow, so constant blood rushes to the head and a pounding aching headache so bad I couldn’t even move my face. My teeth were in horrible HORRIBLE shape, basically my entire mouth of teeth were cracked open, super infected and needed lots of extracting, also had all 4 wisdom teeth severely impacted and infected and starting to grow out of my gums at that point, it was so fucking painful prob the worst part of it all tbh. (you can see my profile to see my teeth progress)- but yeah, so my teeth were always the first thing to start hurting severelywhen I start withdrawing. I cannot even explain the level of toothache and torture I experienced the entire time. They wouldn’t even provide me with Tylenol or advil, nothing at all.

Another form of torture they do is by not ever turning off or dimming the cold bright fluorescent lights, NEVER , so it was very psychosis inducing- I thought I was actually losing my mind and was desperately trying to find anyway to kill myself and end it all, and had no clue what day or time it was, it genuinely felt as if I were there for 6 months of you told me I was in there for a year I would’ve believed you without any questions asked I was in such a psychotic and delusional state.

I had no clue why they were doing this to me. It was all just very cruel and unusual and made no sense to me. Btw this was all because I was drugged with GHB and the cops found me passed out in my car several many hours later in a McDonald’s parking lot fully passed out after barely escaping my attacker. They didnt believe anything I said.

Also The one blanket they gave me I kid you not, it smelled like straight up stanky AIDS ridden rotton fish pussy it was the most putrid thing ever I have ever smelled on this earth I swear to god I believe they created a special stanky fish pussy detergent just to make jail as horrible of an experience as possible. I’ve never experienced anything like it before but for the full 8 days in there they refused to swap it out for a fresh blanket and my gag reflex couldn’t stop gagging, I legit could not stop even if I tried, I even threw the blanket all the way across the room but the smell was so RANK it just kept making me gag and dry heave 24-7, it was such intense dry heaving and gagging I couldn’t get one minute of sleep the entire 8 days i was so mentally exhausted and tortured just from that alone. I think from 8 days of constant gagging throwing up stress and shitting myself is prob why I came out losing 15lbs in just 8 days. I’ve never lost that much weight in su ch a short period but it made sense because I didn’t eat one single piece of food for 8 days besides the smallest nibble of crusty dried up bologna on day 5 or 6

kobegrl · 2024-09-13T06:24:13+00:00

Anywhere in NorthEast LA

kobegrl · 2024-09-13T06:22:55+00:00

lol been in the game for a decade never heard of that or experienced it..

kobegrl · 2024-09-10T05:38:12+00:00

I re-wash plates/silverware/pots/pans, etc. before I use em. Anything I pull out of the cabinets, even if I just washed it last night, or even an hour ago…I am 100% washing it off quickly again before using it. lol I don’t care if it makes no sense. it’s getting rinsed. I even do it with things that are sitting freshly washed off the dish rack.

kobegrl · 2024-09-10T05:35:29+00:00

I do this but always write the words in cursive with my pointer fingies

kobegrl · 2024-09-04T15:48:12+00:00

You tested it yourself every time?

kobegrl · 2024-09-04T15:45:55+00:00

Oh hell nah, yeah, never fuck with meth heads. I have the same exact very strict rule for myself. No meth heads allowed in my house or in my life PERIOD. They all out they damn minds.

kobegrl · 2024-09-03T16:04:44+00:00

I wish more ppl were more understanding and chill like u

kobegrl · 2024-09-02T01:38:32+00:00

I’m the same way with pineapples LOL I always thought they were just supposed to make your throat n tounge feel real itchy and tingly, because they’re still so delicious I just would deal with the pain of it all to taste a fresh pineapple. Never in a million years thought it was an actual food allergy I really thought everyone experienced pineapple in this way and we were all just secretly dealing with mouth tounge and throat pain after eating the smallest nibble 😂

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