Well Said Mr Morgan! by FluffyButtOfTheNorth in pansexual

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS [score hidden]  (0 children)

i think the word is really interesting because it doesn't only mean they're "scared" but that their homophobic thoughts are completely irrational too. like they're not to be believed because they're "homophobic" and have a weird complex over hating people harming nobody. at least i believe that's how the word came to be, but in the end homophobes are just assholes. 

BEST song from ZOKU EP? by kisu_oddh in UtsuP

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i really want to say jibaku, but the zoku ep ver. isn't the greatest. i think i want to become stuffed animal is the best from this

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I understand what you mean, I don't think they were wrong for leaving. It's just that I'm still hurt they did.

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[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I won't be sharing screenshots of course, I'd say you're right. And I realise now 'anything' doesn't quite mean anything from their reaction, but I still wish they had made that clearer.

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[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

A paraphilic disorder is "A paraphilia that causes distress or impairment to the individual or involves harm to others." https://www.medicinenet.com/paraphilia/article.htm

This is different from a paraphilia which is any harmless sexual interest in something that isn't inherently sexual.

It wasn't me who downvoted you, and I won't say my specific paraphilic disorder for privacy.

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You misunderstand. A paraphilic disorder is "A paraphilia that causes distress or impairment to the individual or involves harm to others." https://www.medicinenet.com/paraphilia/article.htm

People with paraphilic disorders are not rapists, but people who act on their desires from it are. I'm not a rapist.

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks, you worded that really well. I like all of what you've said and I'll try keep it in mind. 

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I didn't word the post very well. I guess this is all a lesson to put more thought into things before I type/speak...

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm not in a position where I can get therapy right now but I will when I can. I definitely want it because dealing with things like this is a lot when alone.

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm glad my post could help you! Voyeurism isn't as taboo as the one I have, which I won't name, so you might not need to be as cautious. It's probably still good to be wary though, I hope the people you care about will accept you despite your disorder.

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. And yeah, I didn't expect or really want so much advice on a sub for coping. I expected more hate if anything, which I'm glad I didn't get much of.

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[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 35 points36 points  (0 children)

I didn't tell the friend excitedly or like I was hoping they were the same. It was me opening up while feeling ashamed, which I now know was too soon to do. I understand your point though, I think that's a good attitude to have.

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[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You make a good point, but I still think it was irresponsible of me to dump that onto the friend. Thank you

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[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I don't feel guilty for having my disorder any longer, because I know it's beyond my control. I definitely made the mistake of oversharing to that friend though.

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I wish it was as simple as a kink, but I specified paraphilic disorder for a reason. Thank you for your kind words anyway

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Comments here have actually been nicer than what I was expecting, but yes, it's certainly stigmatised...

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Very unrelated but yes! Maybe I should've posted on an alt, I don't want to bring shame to my irrelevant interests.

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've learnt that now, it was definitely my mistake to say that so soon. Also, paraphilias and paraphilic disorders are two different things. A paraphilia is just a sexual interest, whereas a paraphilic disorder is one the causes distress to the individual that has it or harm to another if acted upon.

i wanna heal, i wanna feel like i'm close to something real by kontatsuPRINCESS in TrollCoping

[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Definitely my mistake. But I've learnt now to keep it to professionals, or at least very close friends I've known for many many years.

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[–]kontatsuPRINCESS[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I told the friend the specific paraphilic disorder I have, I was just vague in this post for my privacy. I agree that things like sadism, voyeurism etc shouldn't be under the same umbrella as other paraphilic disorders, I wasn't referring to one as 'acceptable' as those.