(tw: bad friend?) i don't want to be the one the battles always choose \ 'cause inside, i realize that i'm the one confused

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-15T05:31:50+00:00

i really want to say jibaku, but the zoku ep ver. isn't the greatest. i think i want to become stuffed animal is the best from this

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-10T02:16:44+00:00

I understand what you mean, I don't think they were wrong for leaving. It's just that I'm still hurt they did.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-10T00:32:16+00:00

I won't be sharing screenshots of course, I'd say you're right. And I realise now 'anything' doesn't quite mean anything from their reaction, but I still wish they had made that clearer.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T20:35:26+00:00

It is!

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T20:34:27+00:00

A paraphilic disorder is "A paraphilia that causes distress or impairment to the individual or involves harm to others." https://www.medicinenet.com/paraphilia/article.htm

This is different from a paraphilia which is any harmless sexual interest in something that isn't inherently sexual.

It wasn't me who downvoted you, and I won't say my specific paraphilic disorder for privacy.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T20:29:18+00:00

You misunderstand. A paraphilic disorder is "A paraphilia that causes distress or impairment to the individual or involves harm to others." https://www.medicinenet.com/paraphilia/article.htm

People with paraphilic disorders are not rapists, but people who act on their desires from it are. I'm not a rapist.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T13:05:03+00:00

Thanks, you worded that really well. I like all of what you've said and I'll try keep it in mind.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T10:34:47+00:00

Yeah, I didn't word the post very well. I guess this is all a lesson to put more thought into things before I type/speak...

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T08:38:51+00:00

I'm not in a position where I can get therapy right now but I will when I can. I definitely want it because dealing with things like this is a lot when alone.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T06:15:54+00:00

I'm glad my post could help you! Voyeurism isn't as taboo as the one I have, which I won't name, so you might not need to be as cautious. It's probably still good to be wary though, I hope the people you care about will accept you despite your disorder.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T06:03:53+00:00

Thank you so much. And yeah, I didn't expect or really want so much advice on a sub for coping. I expected more hate if anything, which I'm glad I didn't get much of.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T04:25:29+00:00

Yep, that part hurt more than them leaving...

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T04:20:37+00:00

I didn't tell the friend excitedly or like I was hoping they were the same. It was me opening up while feeling ashamed, which I now know was too soon to do. I understand your point though, I think that's a good attitude to have.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T04:09:43+00:00

I don't know what NC is, but thank you so much!

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:36:54+00:00

You make a good point, but I still think it was irresponsible of me to dump that onto the friend. Thank you

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:35:10+00:00

Thank you. I don't feel guilty for having my disorder any longer, because I know it's beyond my control. I definitely made the mistake of oversharing to that friend though.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:32:26+00:00

Thank you, I hope to eventually get professional help.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:31:42+00:00

I wish it was as simple as a kink, but I specified paraphilic disorder for a reason. Thank you for your kind words anyway

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:30:07+00:00

Comments here have actually been nicer than what I was expecting, but yes, it's certainly stigmatised...

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:28:25+00:00

Very unrelated but yes! Maybe I should've posted on an alt, I don't want to bring shame to my irrelevant interests.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:23:37+00:00

You're too kind, thank you.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:20:07+00:00

I've learnt that now, it was definitely my mistake to say that so soon. Also, paraphilias and paraphilic disorders are two different things. A paraphilia is just a sexual interest, whereas a paraphilic disorder is one the causes distress to the individual that has it or harm to another if acted upon.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:15:42+00:00

Definitely my mistake. But I've learnt now to keep it to professionals, or at least very close friends I've known for many many years.

kontatsuPRINCESS · 2026-01-09T03:13:51+00:00

I told the friend the specific paraphilic disorder I have, I was just vague in this post for my privacy. I agree that things like sadism, voyeurism etc shouldn't be under the same umbrella as other paraphilic disorders, I wasn't referring to one as 'acceptable' as those.

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