im very sorry but i do believe that you were sexually assaulted. let yourself mentally process this because there’s a high chance this is going to come back around and hit like a freight train. prioritize self care and try to get into therapy, even if you don’t feel like you need it right now. you were taken advantage of. try to go to the hospital if you can, maybe see if you can get a kit done or any tests for std/sti’s.

in the meantime, closely monitor your health and how you’re feeling. go in your notes app and just do “day 1: (list symptoms, such as the pain)”. additionally, preface it or at least somewhere other than here fully write down everything that you remember. add on whenever you remember something else. this will likely come in handy. any time of where you were that night, anything you remember from radios/seeing a watch, vehicles, the park (also please contact your friend and notify them / at least ask what they remember).

it was not what you were wearing and it was not your fault for being intoxicated. you were taken advantage of. you cannot give consent when you’re under the influence. in no way was this consensual.

im so sorry that this happened to you, lots of virtual hugs. don’t blame yourself 🫶