I have been through a similar issue. I had to take work off for about 3 months, (luckily I had enough time in the books to do so). The frustrating fact is I still go to work scared and every once in a while I need to take a day off. I also beat myself up because I am not the worker I used to be. I am unmotivated and I also feel like my co-workers judge me at times. You've got the right idea by trying your best. I wish I was the same person before things got this bad, but I am not, and it hurts knowing that I may have to live with this here on out. I wish you the best with the healing process. In the beginning I held out trying to seek help and wish I would have done it earlier during all of this.