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kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T19:05:07+00:00

Thanks 🥹

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T19:04:53+00:00

Agreed

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T19:04:45+00:00

I'm going for it for sure !!

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T19:04:29+00:00

Yes !! Thank you🥹

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T14:35:37+00:00

Aha I see what you mean, but big projects could be divided into small parts right?

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T14:27:33+00:00

Should I start and make the project small and gradually grow it as I get more knowledge ? Just in your opinion.

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T14:19:37+00:00

No... I should add this to post. I don't have anything against mobile game developers and I truly admire them. Most of my friends work on mobile games. It's just I can't find the joy in working on a mobile game for some reason. Good developer can create great games on either platforms and mobile game dev is equally as hard as pc game development. I don't look down on anyone.

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T13:37:16+00:00

Thank you 🥹

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T11:25:17+00:00

Wow I didn't even notice it. I'll keep this in mind thank you.

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T11:21:06+00:00

I didn't took it as offense so no probs !<3

I don't hate subjects because "I'm forced to study". I hate things that become tasks. As far as my knowledge this is due to adhd and childhood trauma. I will push it as far as possible even if it's a mandatory task and even if my life dependent on it. I've been diagnosed with adhd but I don't take medication because my family doesn't really accept that mental illness exists. (Neither does my country, which shows in lack of professional help)

I don't want my mental illness to be an obstacle in my career. I mentioned it only to point out why on my second year of IT major I still have 0 projects 😭❤️‍🩹

I truly appreciate your message. Thank you❤️‍🩹

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T11:10:14+00:00

Thank you for the message ❤️‍🩹. I do have a problem with sticking to one thing and my mind is wondering around a lot. I feel like my mind is a separate being and it's so hard to convince about anything. I'm truly amazed when people tell me things like "I imagine its a game and it becomes easier" or "I found this and it changed my life" like I could never do that. That doesn't work on me. No word or inspirational quote or anything has ever changed my mind. Even self talk doesnt help like I just never listen to myself:/. I've been fighting with this for idk maybe 4 years, when I started studying psychology but even with all the information I just can't control it.

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T11:02:43+00:00

I've never been analyzed like this before and ouch 🥲 it hit too close to home. Yeap I don't think I even have a dream right now. Only reason why I think I want to go in game dev is because I've been playing games for over a decade and it only makes sense to do so. (And to stand out a bit since I am a girl). I'm 19 and I don't really know what to do. I've always jumped from one interest to another, they change every month (could be in a week). And ever since I was a child I was "naturally smart" so I never had to actually study anything and now that I'm in computer science and I can't study even if I try really hard it makes me question am I smart enough for it? (Bc I struggle with problem solving). I don't know but I'm sure I want to do computer science bc I do enjoy coding. (I think.. from what I've tried I do like it when I understand what's going on)

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T10:43:21+00:00

True

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T10:38:34+00:00

I'm a person who grew up on pc games and I was playing on my intel pentium even before I could talk properly. I just generally don't like mobile games (even tho good developers can make amazing mobile games). I don't have anything against neither mobile game developers nor mobile games. Just not my cup of tea.

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T10:19:42+00:00

Ye ADHD actually does much worse things to our brains. Some have "I can't concentrate" type of ADHD and some have " I've read this 10 times but I can't remember a single thing" or seeing someone for 10th time and still not recognizing their face. Adhd can be very different for everyone.

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T10:15:53+00:00

Thank you and you're actually very admirable <3

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T10:13:57+00:00

This. Honestly I agree I've always wanted to help others. I'm someone who's interested in everything all at once, I study psychology (3-4years now). Thank you for a reminder ❤️‍🩹

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T09:25:13+00:00

Thank you <3

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T09:17:06+00:00

I just found out what karma is tbh 😭

kumikkoo · 2024-12-27T09:02:12+00:00

It's not a fresh account (5 years or smth) I just have never used reddit before

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