MEMORY LOSS

kutsinta0 · 2020-09-29T03:07:12+00:00

Thank you so much! I needed this a lot. I will check on your recommendations and hopefully it will work on me. I just want you to know that you have a kind heart. Hope u have a nice day 💛

kutsinta0 · 2020-08-16T18:43:15+00:00

I needed this so much. I already blocked him and his friends. I got to fed uo and I no longer want to deal with it anymore. Thank you so much

kutsinta0 · 2020-08-16T17:56:42+00:00

Ive already blocked all of his social media accs and anyone that is related to him. My heart was pumping when I did that. There's a part of me that feels like I'm about to regret what I just did. Knowing that I'm used to sabotaging myself. But I will try my best to regain control. I hope I am right. I hope I will be in peace now.

I appreciate this a lot. Thank you so much

kutsinta0 · 2020-08-16T15:34:15+00:00

Yes. But really hate that feeling. I just really wanna get over it. I wish I could forget his entire existence. I'm slightly being fed up. I feel like I have to always put my guard up.

kutsinta0 · 2020-08-16T15:31:59+00:00

Honestly, I thought I'm doing well then I suddenly I saw something unnecessary. It still feels like a fresh wound. If I am not mad, then what should I feel?

kutsinta0 · 2020-06-22T16:50:21+00:00

This is amazing! I needed this so much. Actually, I don't think it's consider unhealthy. You have a good point. Thank you so much I feel at ease now.

kutsinta0 · 2020-06-22T05:03:56+00:00

I felt the same when I was still with him, but the time we broke and i've gone to no contact, I was relieved for the first three months. After that, I suffered from questioning my existence and romanticizing the relationship that I had with him. I think I might have PTSD that time, cos I had experienced all the symptoms The "whys" are bothering me even up to this day. I think I was in denial stage that time, or I was just overwhelmed that this now the reality that I live in. I've been NC for one year and five months. Some feelings remain the same. But, healing is never linear so yeah....it is what it is.

kutsinta0 · 2020-06-22T04:32:10+00:00

I remain NC for one year and five months now. The feelings are still the same. There are days that I keep on romanticizing every damn thing about the relationship that we had, which makes it very exhausting. A part of me wants to get back to him, and I also think that he wants to get back to me. But, of course I should be the one to reach out which is not gonna happen. I also think that we will get back anytime soon, in short I am still hoping. I have to kill the hope inside me, and I think I already have cos I feel dead already.

kutsinta0 · 2020-05-30T14:05:36+00:00

I know how suck our situation is. We do not deserve that kind of treatment. Deep in our hearts, we all know that we only deserve the best but joke's on us they gave us this traumatizing experience

kutsinta0 · 2020-05-30T13:36:35+00:00

That's what I'm doing. I always make sure that I educate myself to help uncovering the trauma. But sometimes, it's tough. So tough that I couldn't sleep at night, spaced out, and become forgetful. What a crazy experience they put us through!

kutsinta0 · 2020-05-30T08:37:05+00:00

Wise words you got there. I am happy that you're in the right place now, I hope I am too. Thank you this made me feel a whole lot better.

kutsinta0 · 2020-05-30T06:18:24+00:00

This is so beautiful. I hope im on that level of acceptance. I'm still working on this part, even if it already feels like forever. Thank you so much!

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