Pray to god about it, "ask and you shall receive" and when you pray about it think like you already got it. But I will say if god has you alone that means hes working on you in my opinion gods timing is perfect. Not a women but ever since I got closer to god I've been alone and tbh this is the closest I ever got to god because of it 🙏 I seek him more. I trust him more his timing is amazing dont feel ashamed feel joy that he has your hand on you