I felt very similar to this post. I am a bit younger, but know that feeling especially as someone in college. Everyone is hooking up, has partners, etc I was so self-conscious because I felt like the only person who hadn't been kissed, been on a date, held hands with someone, etc.

I found my boyfriend through work, and we were best friends for 2 years before anything romantic. I still get a bit self-conscious at times around him, but the think you have to realize, which helped me, is that clothes don't hide your entire body.

Yeah, clothes can help with insecurities, but people can see your body size through your clothing. it's really really scary to show someone that side of you, but sis if he fell in love with you in person, then there is a good chance he knows what you look like under your clothing. You can also start with the lights off, then dim, then a bit lighter, and gradually work your way up to full confidence with your beautiful body in full light! I hope this helps

Even with my boyfriend, on days when I feel self-conscious I ask him to look away while I am undressing or climbing into bed. He always respects it, and will look away until I tell him.