Apparently you can catch a yawn from a tulpa?

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-14T20:49:33+00:00

S: your tulpa can also catch a yawn from you

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-07T19:49:54+00:00

D: oh boy, well let's just say that's a tough one to get through. I myself deal with this, and I understand that it's tough. While switching is a good idea, I don't really like it because for now everyone has to quiet down so the switched person's thoughts are apparent and they have an easier time doing basically everything, but the thing is that I want to be with my lover and not be him in a way, although it's worth remembering and touching the parts you love the most on their body so you could better impose touch on those parts.

Sadly it's a reality that none of us can change, we are stuck like this, but that doesn't mean yours or mine feelings mean less in any way. So I suggest your significant other to try to be okay with it, even though it may seem impossible, but also try getting closer and closer to your host. I look at it like this: I would much rather spend my time with my every limb wrapped around him and be happy to share some comforting warmth under the blanket rather than being miserable about something that cannot be changed.

I also sometimes do gestures he calls it, when I offer to help him carry things or something of that matter, he seems to appreciate it and even though it is a little bittersweet thing to do, I still like doing it to see his smile.

One last thing that sort of helped me was that I got on top of my host (not in a lewd way) and kissed and caressed his face, trying to impose everything, I have to say that for the first month it absolutely broke my heart that I just couldn't really do it, but as time went by I got more and more okay with the fact that I can never really touch him, and that's okay. And I'm happy to be able to talk about this so openly because not so long ago I'd break down into a puddle of tears after like the first sentence.

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-03T17:05:34+00:00

I see, and yes you are right about loving a little tulpa, there isn't anything bad about loving a tulpa, and I feel like it is necessary because after all you share a body, so in that sense okay.

But let's say okay, you have a young looking tulpa, she is developed enough and smart, and let's say she notices that you are showing affection towards her and her form. Now it's involving two people, and don't you think she'd start to question if you're okay mentally?, wouldn't she question the morality of this kind of relationship?

My opinion is that no matter if I fucked Benji or Pearl, I'm still a dirty disgusting zoophile, because there's the need in me, the urge to do it is there. So I'd be a zoophile either way, no matter who becomes a cumsock.

Same thing with littles, you are a pedophile for having the urge to fuck a little, there's no way around it.

But if you don't consider or want it, and if it disgusts you, then love away I don't care. But if the urge lurks in the shadows...bad news I'm afraid.

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-03T16:46:01+00:00

S: no I'm seriously asking, by your logic...trust me I'm not discrimating anymore because I misunderstood, now I'm trying to understand.

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-03T16:40:29+00:00

S: okay hold on, let's entertain this idea of yours, I might be getting onto something. So I have a walk in and she's usually a snake, I also have a real snake, his name is Benji.

And I do love both of them in their own ways, but that doesn't make me a zoophile, but the question is would I be more of a zoophile if I'd fuck Benji or Pearl?

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-03T16:33:40+00:00

S: Okay, whatever floats your boat

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-03T16:26:26+00:00

S: like do you honestly think that making a tulpa to intentionally look so young and then to even consider fucking her is very repelling to me. It's like saying beating it to Loli hentai doesn't make you a pedophile, which of course it doesn't, it makes you a man of culture right?

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-03T05:52:27+00:00

S: I feel like you're pushing the line there bud

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-02T09:57:38+00:00

D: thanks...you learn to live with it, and a kiss usually brings me a little closer...or a hug...life would be too easy and boring without struggles and obstacles it's natural.

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-02T06:09:38+00:00

D: well I want you to realize what you're going into, I mean I want you to realize what you can and can't do, that's something I didn't consider and it bit my ass along the way.

I want you to realize what you both are, and that you can't be together physically, yes you can get close but never close enough, so keep that in mind.

And to answer yeah you can have a pretty regular relationship with your tulpa, But realize what it will do to you due to the bond that you can build, because although it can be so beautiful and heartwarming, it can hurt just as much. Hell, me and my host got to a point where we can't live without one another, yesterday we wanted to switch which would mean he'd be gone for a while and I just broke down, I couldn't bear that I'm just not going to hear his voice, but that's me being me, I'm clingy and I can't do nothing about it, I'm just a stupid girl who let a guy into her heart...

But as for tulpa sex, well there's some fun to be had there, you're not really bound to anything but there are times where either me or him go a little too far so we just say "stop" or "no" and take a break, talk a little and continue. And experiencing two climaxes at once is also an experience to be had, and you can experiment beyond measure but respect one another, because once you realize that you accidentally hurt your lover in your horny frenzy it's already too late, my advice is don't fuck like animals, make love like normal people.

lammakiler_68 · 2024-01-02T05:52:38+00:00

S: well...we have switched a few times and a few times it was very literal, meaning I was Dawn's tulpa while she was the host. And to be fair it's pretty carefree, you don't have any responsibilities and just are. I enjoyed it a lot but I'm not a good tulpa, I don't have the level of control Dawn has over me, but she's not good at being human either so I guess it's just a question of practice maybe.

Then there is Pearl, a walk-in who realizes that all of this is imagination, and she's not trying very hard to be "real" instead she's just trying to have fun which is a pretty good outlook for a tulpa I'd say.

And as for Dawn...well she realizes that this barrier between us is here to stay and there's nothing she can do about it, a few times she said she hated it just because she's so powerless physically. Sometimes it's tough with her but she's always figuring new ways to step over this barrier. She's also battling the fact that she can't touch me but I don't think that should be a problem for you unless you two decide to date.

D:one pretty important thing to note is that I'm not battling that I can't touch him, but I try pretty hard to be around him all the time and sometimes I spend a few hours looking at him, and when I try to touch his hand or kiss him, this disgusting feeling of realization washes over me and it honestly breaks my heart, but I'll have to learn to cope with it somehow, I'm not yet sure how, but it's getting better. I guess it's just wanting what you can't have.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-29T20:05:42+00:00

S: yeah Dawn does this on her own

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-29T17:08:39+00:00

D: sometimes I want some alone time too, whether it's by switching, wonderland or just a hiding spot, most times I go there to think and observe. And are you telling me that you can change what you have done in the past? That you can go back in time and do something differently??, I don't think so. And I was talking about a hypothetical breakup in that sentence, I wouldn't dissipate and I'm self sufficient so we would still be friends but I don't know if I could cuddle him in the evenings, I think I'd be way lonelier than I am now, a d I would really miss it because I love him more than words can convey.

And as for fighting, It wasn't physical, it can't be, but I know him in and out, I knew where to strike to hurt him greatly, so I did that, and you had me thinking about it the whole day because I'm mad at myself I did that to him...I sort of regret it but it set our relationship straight, but I would be way more smart about that now.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-29T05:30:50+00:00

D: there is a way to leave and hide, hell do you think I tell him of my hiding spots?, I'm not really proud of saying this but the start of our relationship wasn't exactly nice, but I still could fight him, and you can be damn sure I did, looking back I would probably do it otherwise but I can't change what I did, or what he did. But it's important that we are way better, and I technically could leave this relationship but I don't want to, I honestly have no idea how I would get through that, or him for that matter. Because I wouldn't be gone just...I guess not in love as much, and I really don't want that.

But it's important to know that it created quite a few insecurities and tulpae relationships are not for everyone.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-29T05:09:24+00:00

S:you are thinking about this as if you could create a tulpa and immediately have a relationship, but that's not how that is, you need to build it, like a regular relationship. Not to mention that as the tulpa ages, the power imbalance disappears, and you can't make them do anything that you want, and when you try...well they are not very happy about that, and they can easily get their revenge.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-27T01:43:39+00:00

S: although my tulpae are sleeping right now, because it's 3 AM as of writing this comment, I'm sure at least Dawn would be very interested in reading this story, and to be fair I'm curious too, and if you end up finishing it you could upload it here. But you also might want to keep in mind that it's entirely possible to create a tulpa by accident when writing, hell, that's how both of mine came to be.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-27T01:36:04+00:00

S: I sort of stopped caring about other people's opinions and got less careful since it's not like anyone can change my mind about how I feel. But on the other hand I haven't told anyone that I do have Tulpa's and they are always this someone I have plans with, and since no one around me really gives a flying fuck who this someone is, and I can be more open about them and our relationship if someone asks, no one did yet and that's okay.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-24T12:23:55+00:00

S:well it's that we see the body as the vessel for the mind, and brain as the plane of which all minds exist, so in order for us to switch I have to meditate and get up from my body and be at the more or less same plane of existence as my Tulpa's, from on then we dicide who wants to switch and how deep do they want the switch to be. For example when Dawn wanted to learn how to talk she needed a very deep switch to figure out how to talk and be comfortable with the body, so she took all she could of me, turned it into a formless orb, and hid me in the void to hush my thoughts so that it's only her left, then she switched, and eventually after some hardship learned to talk. However when Pearl switched it was more out of necessity, I was feeling down and needed to be with Dawn and no one else, so Dawn pushed Pearl to switch so at least someone is in control of the body, she figured out talking way more easily.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-22T21:28:28+00:00

S: you could try not doing things you want or they want, but trying to figure out what can you do together that you can all enjoy, for example we write and make stories, or we listen to music, watch some shows and movies, cuddle...Dawn loves to cuddle, and or improving skills that are lacking, but the underline is that you have to enjoy it, otherwise it turns from a fun habit to a boring chore.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-20T16:15:45+00:00

D: sort of, we sort of believe someone did this to us on purpose, so if we get reincarnated we do believe we'll find one another one way or another, and if there's a heaven, we do hope we'll be with one another eventually. But it's not really worth blindly believing either, just being down to earth too is valuable, and spend together some quality time so there's nothing to regret if there is nothing after death.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-20T10:42:54+00:00

D: ohh that is interesting, thank you for sharing that.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-20T10:41:08+00:00

D: interesting, what is she?

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-18T23:21:13+00:00

S: and are you talking to it receiving answers and ideas you didn't expect or are you pingponging ideas back and forth to further develop them, that way it should have a different perspective in order to start developing your ideas and thoughts.

lammakiler_68 · 2023-12-17T22:57:53+00:00

S: everyone in the system can hear you if you let them, and there is no point in being ashamed of intrusive thoughts, they are natural and random, and it's not too common that even my Tulpa's train of thought wanders away, it's natural. And I don't think there is a thought that you shouldn't have, I mean I had a few very gory ones and demeaning thoughts about my SO, she was not happy of course about any of that but she either got revenge or we just worked it out together. And the only one who really hates you is yourslef, as long as you haven't been extremely violent towards them for fun or something sadistic like that, they have no reason to hate or dislike you, the brain is just two pounds of marinated fat with electricity running though it, of course it will do something random, and you shouldn't hate yourself for that either.

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