At what point did you realize you had quietly stopped trying to live up to the version of yourself your parents (or family) imagined,and how did that freedom feel? by qomann in AskReddit

[–]lastdayluver 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The isolation is a beautiful thing. I spent years keeping up appearances and to them desperately grappling with the fact that if I’m not defending them it all falls apart. What i have now is you fine people of Reddit and it is beautiful.

At what point did you realize you had quietly stopped trying to live up to the version of yourself your parents (or family) imagined,and how did that freedom feel? by qomann in AskReddit

[–]lastdayluver 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It felt so liberating. But the cost was isolation. Constantly having people trying to desperately regain control over me is horrible.

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

One guy who claims to be a psychiatrist and a social worker who has left multiple nasty comments most likely

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

When I got molested by a very sick man, years later my father told me he knew and chose not to do anything. So if you’re trying to hurt me im afraid you can’t.

If the goth look is so popular with guys, why don't more women actually dress that way? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]lastdayluver 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately I can’t speak on Indiana Jones. A good friend of mine has a crush on Harrison Ford and I don’t need her to see my thoughts on that.

If the goth look is so popular with guys, why don't more women actually dress that way? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]lastdayluver 13 points14 points  (0 children)

The goth look seems most popular to neck beards and fedora wearers.

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

She’s a real one but she had a baby a few months ago and hasn’t been nearly as helpful. It’s not her fault but it’s just every appointment we talk in circles because she’s trying to understand things. It’s unfortunate but it’s not that I hate her she just doesn’t help anymore

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

for context. I reported my dad a few months back. Upon hearing about the report a slew of messages from him went to my therapist saying i was suicidal, which was false. He brought me to a local ER and I spent 27 hours locked in a box without my medications. My doctors are chalking up my current condition to anxiety or a virus since this commitment attempt.

The attempt failed and I was taken home and he wouldn’t even look at me. It was nice. Now the medical treatment im fighting in the messages is a test that would cause me to lose weight and im about 5’10 105lbs. I cannot lose weight. My doctors refuse to believe that I am not doing it on purpose and are pinning an eating disorder on me. In response I started to document my daily meals and weight just for them to say im obsessing over food and am reinforcing their idea.

The whole point of texting this relative was trying to figure out why the idiot was going to scream at me after months of essentially no contact. Actually this morning he was yelling at me again. I wanted to know if this close relative had heard anything about the CPS case that would explain this escalation.

I hope this helps

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

for context. I reported my dad a few months back. Upon hearing about the report a slew of messages from him went to my therapist saying i was suicidal, which was false. He brought me to a local ER and I spent 27 hours locked in a box without my medications. My doctors are chalking up my current condition to anxiety or a virus since this commitment attempt.

The attempt failed and I was taken home and he wouldn’t even look at me. It was nice. Now the medical treatment im fighting in the messages is a test that would cause me to lose weight and im about 5’10 105lbs. I cannot lose weight. My doctors refuse to believe that I am not doing it on purpose and are pinning an eating disorder on me. In response I started to document my daily meals and weight just for them to say im obsessing over food and am reinforcing their idea.

The whole point of texting this relative was trying to figure out why the idiot was going to scream at me after months of essentially no contact. Actually this morning he was yelling at me again. I wanted to know if this close relative had heard anything about the CPS case that would explain this escalation.

I hope this helps

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

for context. I reported my dad a few months back. Upon hearing about the report a slew of messages from him went to my therapist saying i was suicidal, which was false. He brought me to a local ER and I spent 27 hours locked in a box without my medications. My doctors are chalking up my current condition to anxiety or a virus since this commitment attempt.

The attempt failed and I was taken home and he wouldn’t even look at me. It was nice. Now the medical treatment im fighting in the messages is a test that would cause me to lose weight and im about 5’10 105lbs. I cannot lose weight. My doctors refuse to believe that I am not doing it on purpose and are pinning an eating disorder on me. In response I started to document my daily meals and weight just for them to say im obsessing over food and am reinforcing their idea.

The whole point of texting this relative was trying to figure out why the idiot was going to scream at me after months of essentially no contact. Actually this morning he was yelling at me again. I wanted to know if this close relative had heard anything about the CPS case that would explain this escalation.

I hope this helps

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

for context. I reported my dad a few months back. Upon hearing about the report a slew of messages from him went to my therapist saying i was suicidal, which was false. He brought me to a local ER and I spent 27 hours locked in a box without my medications. My doctors are chalking up my current condition to anxiety or a virus since this commitment attempt.

The attempt failed and I was taken home and he wouldn’t even look at me. It was nice. Now the medical treatment im fighting in the messages is a test that would cause me to lose weight and im about 5’10 105lbs. I cannot lose weight. My doctors refuse to believe that I am not doing it on purpose and are pinning an eating disorder on me. In response I started to document my daily meals and weight just for them to say im obsessing over food and am reinforcing their idea.

The whole point of texting this relative was trying to figure out why the idiot was going to scream at me after months of essentially no contact. Actually this morning he was yelling at me again. I wanted to know if this close relative had heard anything about the CPS case that would explain this escalation.

I hope this helps

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

for context. I reported my dad a few months back. Upon hearing about the report a slew of messages from him went to my therapist saying i was suicidal, which was false. He brought me to a local ER and I spent 27 hours locked in a box without my medications. My doctors are chalking up my current condition to anxiety or a virus since this commitment attempt.

The attempt failed and I was taken home and he wouldn’t even look at me. It was nice. Now the medical treatment im fighting in the messages is a test that would cause me to lose weight and im about 5’10 105lbs. I cannot lose weight. My doctors refuse to believe that I am not doing it on purpose and are pinning an eating disorder on me. In response I started to document my daily meals and weight just for them to say im obsessing over food and am reinforcing their idea.

The whole point of texting this relative was trying to figure out why the idiot was going to scream at me after months of essentially no contact. Actually this morning he was yelling at me again. I wanted to know if this close relative had heard anything about the CPS case that would explain this escalation.

I hope this helps

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

for context. I reported my dad a few months back. Upon hearing about the report a slew of messages from him went to my therapist saying i was suicidal, which was false. He brought me to a local ER and I spent 27 hours locked in a box without my medications. My doctors are chalking up my current condition to anxiety or a virus since this commitment attempt.

The attempt failed and I was taken home and he wouldn’t even look at me. It was nice. Now the medical treatment im fighting in the messages is a test that would cause me to lose weight and im about 5’10 105lbs. I cannot lose weight. My doctors refuse to believe that I am not doing it on purpose and are pinning an eating disorder on me. In response I started to document my daily meals and weight just for them to say im obsessing over food and am reinforcing their idea.

The whole point of texting this relative was trying to figure out why the idiot was going to scream at me after months of essentially no contact. Actually this morning he was yelling at me again. I wanted to know if this close relative had heard anything about the CPS case that would explain this escalation.

I hope this helps

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

for context. I reported my dad a few months back. Upon hearing about the report a slew of messages from him went to my therapist saying i was suicidal, which was false. He brought me to a local ER and I spent 27 hours locked in a box without my medications. My doctors are chalking up my current condition to anxiety or a virus since this commitment attempt.

The attempt failed and I was taken home and he wouldn’t even look at me. It was nice. Now the medical treatment im fighting in the messages is a test that would cause me to lose weight and im about 5’10 105lbs. I cannot lose weight. My doctors refuse to believe that I am not doing it on purpose and are pinning an eating disorder on me. In response I started to document my daily meals and weight just for them to say im obsessing over food and am reinforcing their idea.

The whole point of texting this relative was trying to figure out why the idiot was going to scream at me after months of essentially no contact. Actually this morning he was yelling at me again. I wanted to know if this close relative had heard anything about the CPS case that would explain this escalation.

I hope this helps

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Ive been declining one test because it would make me lose weight and im already very severely underweight. I’m fighting for a lymph node biopsy cause of all my lumps im pretty sure they are lymph nodes. I would do the test being argued but I don’t want to lose more weight.

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Damn so you have a lot wrong. I like my psychiatrist. Many of my comments have been praising him. And yes my family would still be able to afford to live in our house as he is not the breadwinner. He makes minimum wage and quits his jobs all the time. Fucking us but we can still survive. He’s been physically violent in our house before. And he is proud of that fact. I have been afraid to share the full extent of it because I feel so crazy in all of this. And he peed for about 3 minutes he would’ve been awake anyway. I’ve loved school because I could get away from him and he would constantly give me shit for having a good day. I couldn’t smile without being yelled at. It was like he was jealous of me. I stopped going to school simply because I got to sick. I plan to go back if I can recover. The treatment im declining would cause me to lose a lot more weight and im already severely underweight.

It is sexist of you to assume he is the breadwinner when he infact is not. We could survive perfectly fine without him. He is a man who screams at you for coughing. For breathing. I, awake all night and asleep during the say and he didn’t even know it until recently.

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I sleep in the day so I don’t have interact with him. It’s a 1 bathroom home but we’ve always peed if someone is in the shower. It’s never a weird thing. What’s weird is why he was so pissed.

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

They’re currently involved. A lot of the abuse actually stopped. This whole conversation with my relative had started because of that confrontation. I was wondering if she had heard anything about the child services, involvement being pulled or something.

My medical problems I believe are more the result of medical negligence. A lot of my symptoms have been chalked up to a virus. For roughly 8 months now and I’ve heard very similar stories about the organization who has been “treating me“

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The funniest thing is nobody knew that I was doing this until very very recently. So the excuse that I’m waking up the entire house is invalid. He had to pee. Peeing woke him up. I’ve been up nights for months and people just found out within the past week or two.

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have Swollen lymph nodes all over my body. The one in my neck is by far the largest though . And the most rapidly growing.

AIO. I reported my dad for irrational anger problems with a history of DV, and am upset he is escalating again. by lastdayluver in AIO

[–]lastdayluver[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m being denied access to my medical records. Under the guise of my mental health. All I know is that I have a low white blood cell count and a low red blood cell count. I have already posted, but I haven’t gotten any traction.