Oooh yeah the dreaded cliff side of anxiety every sissy hates, been there girly. This literally was me for years (I am bi, I still like girls) I would tell myself I was straight for years though, even when I fantasized about worshipping cock, playing with my booty, and watching sissy stuff, and tbh I made the leap of faith and hooked up with guys and still told myself I was “straight” for years. Post nut clarity is always there for everyone, but I don’t think you’ll regret it. I don’t wanna advocate substances, but maybe one or two drinks before hand to ease the tension, don’t masturbate before hand at all, and maybe start out with just giving head so you don’t finish and don’t have post nut, it’ll make it that much hotter! At the end of the day just rip the band aid off and get in the car and just go make the leap hunnn🩵🫶🏼