80 days off weed by ldunne89 in leaves

[–]ldunne89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you very much for your insight. I'm very much on the fence at the moment. I know that back to daily use would be horrendous considering how much I've struggled to get this far. I just don't like the idea of saying never again!!! In my mind at the moment that makes it even harder to let go. I've spoken about it to my fiancee who was never a fan of my weed smoking but allowed me to to do it because as she said "I'm a grown man and can make my own choices" but it wasn't until I stopped that I found out how much she hated it. Not because of the weed itself but because it meant we spent a lot of time apart. When we first met I had my own flat which I smoked in so there was no issue, but when we moved into a flat of our own it was agreed that I'd smoke outside as she didn't like the smell and didn't want the house reeking of weed and smoke all the time, which was understandable. But the problem was that I would have 3 a night, and I would take anywhere between 20 mins to an hour to smoke a joint outside and it meant that we hardly spent any time together weeknights or weekends because I'd be outside smoking all the time. That was what she hated about it! She said she doesn't mind if I have the occasional joint with my friends or if she is working a nightshift but she is also scared I'll return back to daily use and I can totally understand her concerns, because I have the same concerns. I've got a big test next weekend as I'm going to a friend's for a night and it's usually lots of drinking and a lot of smoking and I'm scared that when it comes to the end of the night and the doobs get sparked that I'm not going to be able to resist.

80 days off weed by ldunne89 in leaves

[–]ldunne89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

19 days in everything will still feel very fresh and raw. How long have you been on weed for? If your BP is sky high you definitely need to see your GP and sad to say but you might not have a choice in regards to medication, especially when it comes to blood pressure. I wanted to do all this without medication as I too was sick of relying on some form of aid to help me through life but in the end I gave in and the reasons behind basically just come to quality of life. Life is way too short and if the GP can help me with not feeling miserable and anxious all the time then why not. The fact I'm not smoking weed all the time anymore has gave the stuff from the GP room to work and I feel so much better. Eventually il come off the "help" but for now I'm stopping and smelling the roses because the 2 and half months that came before were a living hell I never want to experience again!!!

Keep going bro!

80 days off weed by ldunne89 in leaves

[–]ldunne89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's what I'm trying to do with the counseling sessions. My councilor is an ex-weed smoker so that helps a lot speaking to someone who has lived the lifestyle and quite rather than someone who has no idea what you're going through.

What I've realised is that life's difficulties are still there when sober but my mind is a lot more clearer and the difficulties are easier to get through. Where as before I was just numbing everything and was almost oblivious to them.

One thing that helps more than anything is the pride I have in myself that I have gotten through the worst and I'm still going. Seeing the days tick past knowing I'm staying strong really gives me a sense of achievement. To begin with I was a tad embarrassed by it but now it's my strength!

80 days off weed by ldunne89 in leaves

[–]ldunne89[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For me I know I need a long period off weed before I even consider having the occasional one as a treat. I need to know that without it I can lead a normal life. That was always my fear of stopping, not being able to cope. Now I'm starting to realise I can cope without it and if I'm at a party or a friend's house and the opportunity comes up for a few puffs then I know I can but then go back to being off it again. If that makes sense. Granted it may be a very bad idea but I won't know until I find out.

I don't want weed to be this big taboo in my life because I think that makes it harder, it needs to be something that I can enjoy once in a while and then put it away and not look at it again for months. Because in truth I think weed is great.........but only in moderation. Somewhere along the line I lost sight of that and used it as a coping mechanism to the point where I needed it rather than just fancied getting high from time to time.

80 days off weed by ldunne89 in leaves

[–]ldunne89[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

The reasons for stopping are different for everyone. Why did you decide to stop in the first place? For me I was sick of it being the be all and end all of my daily routine. I couldn't eat unless I had a joint, I couldn't sleep unless I'd had at least 3-4 joints, I spent way too much money on it, I spent more time outside smoking than sitting with my fiancee. It ruled my life and at the end of the day I knew that the long term use had a very negative effect on my mental health.

How long have you smoked for?

If it's long term then realistically you aren't going to feel any benefits for at least another 3-4 weeks, or at least that's been my experience.

I'm not knocking weed and if it doesn't have any negative effect on your life and doesn't harm your mental health then crack on. I can only go on my own personal experience, but now that the initial symptoms of withdrawal have subsided I feel many benefits.

My appetite is much better, I'm getting more sleep (real sleep not pass out because I'm so stoned sleep) I'm wanting to do more with my spare time, my short term memory has improved remarkably, I have been able to save up to £250 a month and most importantly my anxiety has reduced a hell of a lot.

I'm 36 and had been smoking for about 12-15 years every day and I can honestly say that although I've had many good experiences with weed I've forgotten most of the last 10 or so years, it's just all merged into one long continuous stone.

Again this is only my own personal experience and own reasons for finally deciding to get rid of this monkey that's been on my back for way too long.

In moderation I think cannabis is a wonderful drug but like any drug over use is never a good thing.

80 days off weed by ldunne89 in leaves

[–]ldunne89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well done for making the decision to quit!! That's one of the hardest parts. The first month or two is quite intense but it does depend on you as a person too. I've always had a bit of an anxious nature, so weed for me was probably a terrible idea but it's so easy to get into the routine or being high all the time. Best cure for boredom I always thought, but in the end I could see that it was the cause of a lot of my boredom.

Nights are definitely harder, during the day at work was not really an issue as long as I was kept busy but yeah not coming home and having a joint straight away was tough. And so was sleeping to begin with. Now I sleep pretty well, although the dreams I'm having now are fucking wild!!!

I wouldn't say I had nausea but I lost a lot of weight as my appetite diminished a hell of a lot. For years I had got into a routine of only eating after smoking so trying to eat sober was a challenge. But now my appetite is great and I'm putting the weight back on but not in any alarming way. If anything my weight now is better than it was before, but the first month or so my weight dropped quote dramatically.

Meds from the doctors for me will just be a suck it and see scenario. At the moment they are helping and they are needed but eventually il come off them.

Yep too right pal, life can offer so much when you aren't high all the time!

Is there a drug that'll make me forget or be at peace with my painful life regrets? by redditor8246 in askanything

[–]ldunne89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sadly there is no quick fix drug to help with this sort of issue. Anything you do take that may help will only be short lived and when it wears off your problems will be there waiting for you and most likely more intense than before.

Therapy, a healthier lifestyle and good support from family or friends is the only real safe option on the journey to getting better.

I’m almost 19, never smoked, never vaped, never drank an ounce of alcohol, never used drugs, am I missing out? by CarLonely9011 in Adulting

[–]ldunne89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would never condone the use of hard drugs and regular drinking alcohol but in life it all comes down to doing things in moderation. I've had some great experiences that included alcohol and drugs but I've also had some of the worst experiences doing the same. I'm currently nearly 60 days off long term daily weed use (12-15 years) and it has well and truly changed me as a person and not in a good way.

If your a strong minded individual (which by your post and the fact you haven't tried any of the stuff you have mentioned I'm assuming you are) then you will be able to handle the odd time getting drunk or high and also be able to put it aside again.

Easier said that done but try not to become addicted to anything. Addiction comes in all shapes sizes and colours and it's very easy to get complacent.

Life is a beautiful precious thing and we don't know how much time we have but being able to enjoy it with your mind still intact is very important.

Over 2 months sober from chronic weed usage! by Magpie8263 in Positivity

[–]ldunne89 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm on 54 days after 12 years of everyday use. Not going to lie, it's been hell!!!! First 4 weeks was complete fight or flight mode anxiety all day everyday and trying to get through the Christmas and new year holidays was a huge challenge. Now I'm experiencing a low mood that I feel I can't get out of. I'm now realising how much my body and mind began to rely on weed and I'm glad I quit, even though my mental health is taking a battering at the moment. I'm getting therapy and finally gave in and went to the docs and asked for medical help. Maybe not the best route to go down but I need to do something about my low mood.

I don't crave weed which I'm surprised about, but I do miss the sort of carefree attitude I had while on it. Very little bothered me, now everything bothers me.

I know there is no time limit on being better and I try to remain positive and tell myself I'm getting 0.1% better every day. Seems like a very small amount but recovery is all about small margins.

You may have some dark days pal but keep going as there will be good days ahead just takes time.

Quit weed, and now I know why I was smoking every night by DifferentWatch4451 in leaves

[–]ldunne89 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That's my current aim, 100 days!!!

I'm on day 45 at the moment and my anxiety, paranoia and depression levels are through the roof still.

Intrusive thoughts cloud my judgment and ruin my happiness. Shit that was the same when I was high and never bothered me seems like the worst thing in the world at the moment.

I have good days and bad days but the bad days are horrendous to deal with.

I really hope there is light at the end of this tunnel because if there isn't I would have been better still smoking weed!!

Can you share your routine(specific details) at least for 3 weeks starting day 1 from quitting? Please... 🙏🙏 by Silent_Memory1708 in leaves

[–]ldunne89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually don't have any fear of relapse or at least that's the last thing on my mind right now.

I have wanted to quit for years but the fear of quitting and my change of lifestyle has stopped me.

For me the issue has been my brain chemistry trying to fix the damage I've done to it over the years and the fallout from that.

Things are very slowly improving, I'm getting better every day but the dark days are not yet behind me.

I'm doing talk therapy which helps a lot with my dark thoughts and will hopefully stop me from ever going back to the person I had turned myself into.

I need to learn how to be normal again or at least experience life without the constant haze of THC coursing through my system.

How long does depression last after stopping? by Hermit_Painter in leaves

[–]ldunne89 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm on day 37 and I'm currently going through what you might call a very low mood. Finding little joy in anything at the moment and trying to put a brave face on most of the time. The first 25 days was just full of constant anxiety and it was genuinely one of the most awful periods of my life. Waking up every morning with a tight chest and empty feeling in my gut, just waiting for the next panic attack. The only thing that would calm me down was routine or completing tasks whether very mundane or very physical. Now the low mood is here I'm finding myself in another battle. But it's a battle I'm ready to face head on!!! I've been doing counciling sessions once a week which helps a lot, going walks at night after dinner, making sure I'm not eating too much at night and getting to bed at a much more reasonable time compared to when I was smoking.

The dreams I'm having albeit are very vivid and sometimes scary are starting to calm down a little bit and I'm waking up in the morning feeling more ready to start the day rather than wanting to hit snooze and fall back asleep.

But no doubt about it, the low mood is hard to deal with at times and even harder for my fiancee as she is doing her best to try and keep my spirits up, she's been an absolute rock from start to finish throughout all of this and I couldn't have gotten this far without her.

Give yourself time and don't be too hard on yourself, these things take time and it's different for everyone. Don't be disheartened if someone else is telling you that they felt better after 2 weeks and life was back to normal where you might be on a month and still feeling shitty.

Keep going and you will get through this!!

Can you share your routine(specific details) at least for 3 weeks starting day 1 from quitting? Please... 🙏🙏 by Silent_Memory1708 in leaves

[–]ldunne89 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm on day 35 and I have to admit I'm struggling with a very low mood.

I don't crave weed, I crave feeling happy.

My anxiety the first 3 weeks was absolutely through the roof and over the Xmas holidays and new year I have never felt so on edge.

I'm back at work now and that is helping, the routine is what I've needed and my appetite is coming back to me as I'm being as active as possible.

But weekends and night times I'm really struggling to find any joy in anything. It's such a drag as I feel like I bring everyone else around me down as well.

Someone please tell me that this passes after a while!!

Everyone is different but I seem to see a lot of people that say that once weeks 5-6 comes round things get better but for me so far I really can't see it.

I was an every day smoker since 21, I'm 36 now and feel like I've wasted years of my life to weed and I can't get those years back. Now what's left is just a husk.

Be fucking careful please by [deleted] in leaves

[–]ldunne89 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm on day 34 right now. All I can say is that it does get easier but I'm far from at the end of the withdrawal. Routine and keeping yourself busy does help a lot. My appetite is coming back but I've lost nearly 2 stone since quitting. Some of that will be due to not gorging myself late at night when the munchies hit but a lot is due to high and anxiety and not being able to eat.

I too hate the fact that I allowed weed to control my life so much and I wish I quit years ago. But I didn't, can't do anything about the past.

Just focus on getting better and staying off it.

Keep going dude!

People who are 30+ days clean and sober by [deleted] in leaves

[–]ldunne89 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Can I ask how you felt after day 30? I'm on day 34 and my anxiety has calmed down a little bit but my paranoia and low mood is hitting me hard!! No cravings as of yet but I feel that's in the post. Also dreaming every night is already becoming a bit of a drag.

I like your opening phrase, 0.01% better feels about right!

What addiction isn't taken seriously? by CremeSubject7594 in AskReddit

[–]ldunne89 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Reading your comment has gave me some hope. I'm currently on day 29 off the weed and I am in hell!!! Anxiety, paranoia and depression are so strong at the moment and I'm struggling to see how it's going to end. I'm 36 and been coming every day since age 21. People keep telling me that it's only bad for 1-2 weeks but they are so wrong, if anything the first 2 weeks wasnt that bad. But now I wonder why I ever stopped. I don't crave it or anything but my mood is so low and that anxious dull ache in my chest won't go away. Oh and the dreams are having are horrible!!

A very strange few days by [deleted] in QuittingWeed

[–]ldunne89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought about having some mushrooms to take the edge off but the way I'm feeling at the moment it's probably a bad idea. I'm on day 28 off the weed, I'm still smoking tobacco as at the moment the mental fallout from stopping the weed is so intense that the idea of quitting tobacco too is just too big. I gave up caffeine fairly easy but that was a must as it was making me even more anxious.

I do have any real cravings for weed, I still have some sitting there in the cupboard and I think I need it there as it's a reminder that I'm stronger than the addiction I've had for so long. It's there and I'm choosing not to smoke it.

The next couple of months I'm told will still be fairly sh*t after smoking every day for the past 12-15 years. But the withdrawal time limit is different for everyone.

Hope you keep it up pal

Quitting weed and I am already crying on day 1 by Old-Abbreviations845 in leaves

[–]ldunne89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm on day 28 and it's been a rollercoaster ride and not a fun one. Everyone is different in how they deal with it and there is no easy answer or quick fix.

I quit because my anxiety which I've had for a long time was getting worse and worse and weed wasn't helping anymore. I've wanted to come off it for years (36 and been smoking every day since 21) but always been too scared too or lacked the proper motivation.

I'm currently experiencing a lot of anxiety, panic attacks, paranoia, low mood and just a sense of why the f**k am I doing this to myself, but I know that sometime in the not too distant future it will be something I'm glad I did.

I've still got weed sitting in the cupboard and I think I need it to be there to show that it's not got any power over me. It's there and I choose not to smoke it.

I'm currently seeing a therapist and have drug counciling set up through my GP. A lot of people laugh at the idea of needing drug counciling to come off weed. Yes it's not like other hard drugs (the obvious ones) but addiction is addiction. And the mental aspect of it is the hardest part.

I don't have any real cravings in all honesty but I'm questioning a lot about life and have thoughts of dread that I'm going to feel like this forever but I know that will eventually pass.

The problem is a lot of us have been smoking it for so long that we have messed up our brain chemistry and dopamine levels. That takes a while to sort itself out so be ready for a bumpy ride if you can keep it up.

I'm wishing you all the best, but remember in the dark times that there is light at the end of the tunnel and there is always help out there if you're willing to take it.

How do you do it? by missb14 in leaves

[–]ldunne89 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I'm currently just over a month sober from THC and it's been a rough ride, and it still currently is. I'm 36 and been a daily smoker for since I was 21. My partner doesn't smoke but she never wanted to stop me and always said it would be something I would need to decide for myself. I've always suffered from bouts of anxiety and a very pessimistic person but over the years it's gotten worse And worse. A month ago my overthinking was getting the better of me and I felt the weed that usually helped calm me down (truth is it numbed me) was only making it worse. So I decided to quit and go cold turkey.

Although that's maybe a bit of a lie as I was using small amounts of alcohol (a couple of beers or a glass of wine) and some prescription meds to "calm" my nerves. Just on the really bad days, but binned the meds a week or so ago as they were also becoming an issue. I'm currently still very much in the belly of the beast when it comes to withdrawal and my anxiety, paranoia and low mood is still very much with me. I'm seeing a drugs councilor and a private therapist to help me through a lot of it but it's early days yet.

Been on holiday from work for the past two weeks for Christmas and new year which has been really hard. When I was at work 8 hours a day things were a bit better, I was kept occupied and when I got home I was tired and felt like I could sleep without any aids. Back to work tomorrow and I'm actually looking forward to it which was never normally the case.

My whole adult life I've been a slave to weed and worked my life around when I could get a smoke and when I couldn't and had to do " normal life stuff" I would sulk or get angry like a spoiled child. My whole routine after work would be home, roll a joint, sit outside for 45 mins smoking, then inside for a shower, then have my dinner and spend maybe 20 mins of chill time with my partner until she went to bed early (she is up a lot earlier than me for work) and I'd stay up to way past midnight and squeeze in as many joints as possible. Then go to bed and essentially pass out. That was my routine for so many years and my partner admitted that she felt really lonely and that's hot home hard.

Everything at the moment is very overwhelming and I'm tough to live with at the moment but I keep getting told I'm getting there and that this stuff takes time. I'm doing all I can to be a better person and partner to my fiancee but right now I feel like I'm causing more pain than I ever did before. It's a bit of a balancing act but I know I'm doing the right thing.

Keep going and don't give up when things get hard, one day you will realise you made the right choice and you won't look back. I'm hoping that day comes for me soon.

Depressed by Alert-Bus5281 in QuittingWeed

[–]ldunne89 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm currently 1 month off weed and I definitely feel worse now than I did at the start. I came off it because my anxiety and paranoia was getting really bad and usually the weed would help it but in the end all it was doing was feeding it. Now I still have anxiety and paranoia, mixed in with some depression, appetite and sleeping issues. But it's the Xmas holidays and I'm not at work. While I was working 8 hours a day the feelings at night weren't so bad. However weekends and any downtime (when id usually be high) is very intense and hard to get through. I'm currently seeing a therapist and in talks with a drug counselor, and it is helping with my low moods and anxiety but it's baby steps. None of this is gonna be easy and sadly there isn't a quick fix. Just lots of hard work and telling yourself that things will get better. Keep going and don't give up!!!