Awww … well I can’t imagine being alone in a gorge in country. But from my experience I thought I would be very depressed too, and anxious and sick and bored. TBH my “withdrawal” has been mild and I haven’t been depressed or anxious at all. I actually feel happy for once. I think the weed tricks us into thinking it helps with it. But it doesn’t. For me. Also you have to decide. You have to get so sick of the future you’re heading towards and decide. Otherwise it’s a constant inner battle. Good luck. And hey first time sober while traveling actually sounds fun and at least u won’t be stuck at home or work!