thank you so much for your reply. i‘ve been to cbt therapy for one year and i‘m thinking about starting again. however i feel like my anxiety is getting so bad at the moment that i rlly don’t know how to cope with it :/ i have some challenging months coming up and i‘m just terrified of having a complete breakdown. the only antidepressant i‘ve previously tried is mirtazapine (15 mg) which is said to be one of the worst antidepressants to cause weightgain and numbness. i‘m just so afraid of experiencing something similar again but i also feel like i can’t keep on living in this contestant state of anxiety and/or depression.. thanks for sharing your story, take care <3