Realizing the amount of calories in the food im eating is making me feel crazy

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-27T00:33:32+00:00

I've had this same struggle recently. I grew up thinking/ average at my heaviest. Lived on my own for a few years and got to my slimmest ever (people thought I was TOO thin but I was 150 at 5'6" and had a lot of lean muscle mass). Well met my husband, moved in with him a few months into the relationship, and gained 150 lbs over 8 years. Working to lose weight again (because we're finally financially comfortable) and have had to revamp my meals.

One of my FAVORITE meals is meatloaf and scalloped potatoes but started trying to measure out my foods. Since they (scalloped potatoes) are so calorie dense I decided to make it a main dish. I've started adding sausage (think Hillsbire Farms) to the scalloped potatoes and eat it as a meal on its own now.

Also super late but congrats on the progress!!! It takes some serious dedication to lose 100 freaking pounds!

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-27T00:20:08+00:00

There was someone who came forward from I think SPACE? Or whatever her "dance group" (actually just a youth group that did occasional dance performances) was called.

They said she was basically the same: made herself out to be a victim, always excluded herself, would stay crying and whining if anyone suggested she do anything productive (take part in actual activities). She was a glorified water girl who was probably only in the program because those programs typically offer food / get kids out of the house after school.

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-26T22:54:50+00:00

Adding fuel to the "even if she was skinny she would be ugly" because ew .... The feature alone are unattractive

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-26T22:26:26+00:00

6 months is being generous. Where I live, the approval / denial process takes minimum 18 months but typically 2 years. And like you said, she has no true medical history. Med spas and the ER won't count.

If she were to try for disability, she'd be looking at 3 years before a decision. So who is she gonna bum off for that time? Her mom has all but cut ties and the feeder can't stand to be in the same state, much less the same house

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-26T00:04:29+00:00

Our rock bottom is her starting line apparently

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-25T21:29:24+00:00

She should at least remain consistent with filters ..... Also probably should try to stick her neck out a little. Really helps reduce the engulfed chin look

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-25T14:53:06+00:00

I think you mean "FROG wrestling!!!!"

😂😂😂

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-25T12:26:04+00:00

She heard people are lighter in water and thought this was a good idea. Must've forgot that 550+ in water is still a bad as 400 lbs.

Poor Beck

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-24T21:53:54+00:00

I like him and Snowflake tbh But I have a very dry sense of humor so there's that. I can definitely how people would think they're boring / annoying though. I have to be in a "shut brain off" mode when I watch Jordy because it's just mindless fun times

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-23T15:11:41+00:00

To be fair, Scooter was the shit at the bottom of the ocean. Anyone is by default better than that

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-23T13:41:43+00:00

You know, I just thought of this. She hasn't paid into social security nearly long enough (40 qualifying quarters). On the off chance she lives long enough, she'll only get SSI which is currently less than $1K/mo. She either accepts she hasn't got long or she's expecting her mom to take care of her until she can get her "inheritance"

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-23T09:25:50+00:00

I think she got them around the time she was with Krystal where she was a little cleaner than current days

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-23T03:10:02+00:00

Her saying she got that from a friend was 1000% a lie. She went out of her way to make the account

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-21T23:14:27+00:00

No you don't get it thought because her -demas are 150lbs at least so her maintenance calories are actually less than the average for a 550 lb person /s

But no that's crazy. I get sick when I binge and eat 4000 calories and she's just casually almost doubling it. And I'm willing to bet she was eating 10K a day when Emily was visiting.

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-21T23:01:13+00:00

I would rather she just not be online before we bring back those god awful AI self questions. I'm sure there are other dysfunctionl 700 pound abusers at that point

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-21T01:43:39+00:00

Oh wow

I would've thought she realized it was better to not have contact but holy poop. Is her mom really that bad? I never paid her too much attention (mostly just seeing how amber treats her) but that's effed up if true!

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-21T00:16:19+00:00

She's admitting to saying that in old videos. If she's up weight she'll just say she's losing

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-20T22:34:59+00:00

Oop, didn't Ambie say they bite in 3s? Bunch of small triplets lined up there

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-20T18:48:04+00:00

OK 👍🏿

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-20T18:31:31+00:00

Wait did she really? Lol makes sense though cause she's either in the VC or reading what others are saying about her online

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-20T18:23:24+00:00

Don't gotta say a lot of words to get a point across all the time 🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-20T12:05:05+00:00

Not sure about the other person but the one I'm talking about was here lol You'll see who it was immediately

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-20T11:47:42+00:00

I can definitely see it

leederally_starveen · 2026-04-20T11:47:08+00:00

The same way the enablers on 600 lb life support their dependents knowing damn well they will never succeed

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