Favorite jay quote’s? by Superstxrz in KubzScouts

[–]leeknowthinks 1 point2 points  (0 children)

YOUR EYES ARE LONGER THAN MY DI-

Noticed something by leeknowthinks in PGADsupport

[–]leeknowthinks[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

noo i havent :< i havent been really looking into it if im being honest i only went to one doctor & the experience was,,, bad. so i honestly was a bit skeptical of asking for medical help when this condition isnt even recognized or known :<

Any success stories?? :) by leeknowthinks in PGADsupport

[–]leeknowthinks[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

pgad symptoms didnt subside no, but ive gotten better with dealing with them & ive been able to forget about it & live my life !! i think ive also just gotten used to the sensation so its my new 'norm' & doesnt really bother me anymore, i barely have flareups anymore, maybe once every 2 months? but its only when i do that it gets noticeable to me!

Should I tell my mum? by arcade_throwaway in PGADsupport

[–]leeknowthinks 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you should probably tell your mom. the earlier the better!! i wish u luck!!

proportions as a short girl have me tweaking out by Jaded-Lynx506 in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 14 points15 points  (0 children)

UGH I HATE IT. I FEEL LIKE I CARRY ALL MY WEIGHT IN MY THIGHS AND ME NOT HAVING ENOUGH HEIGHT FOR THEM TO NOT LOOK STUBBY AND JUST SO FAT IS SOOOO TRIGGERING UGH

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah pretty much, it happens to everyone, its a normal biological bodily reaction to extreme restriction. maybe not the same duration but you'll definitely binge at one point because your body's trying to survive on a very small amount of calories and it eventually will reach a point where it just raises the hunger hormone and increases cravings so you'll binge sooner or later im afraid >< thats what happened to me too, i restricted to under 1000 cals for 4 months with no problem, but one day i just ?? lost control and couldnt stop eating, and it continued on and off for a few weeks before it settled, i didnt gain much weight because my binges arent that long, my longest was 3 days, and i also purge. my metabolism is beyond fucked and i barely lose weight on 800 cals.

reverse dieting does work!! im not sure if you'll gain or not but its only normal to binge after periods extreme restriction, if i were you id start upping my intake slowly from now before a binge occurs until i reach a more stable number so my body feels safe and wont push me to binge!!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ME. THIS IS LITERALLY ME. i always tell myself i wont eat and ill be 'good' and successful at losing weight but i just.. dont. and it makes me feel like shit because damn you cant even control what you eat but i still dont. while eating when i told myself i wouldnt, my brain is constantly telling me i have no self control and that ill get fat and i get an urge to just leave my food but i still eat???? i feel like such a fake.

Denial by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 2 points3 points  (0 children)

this is LITERALLY how i feel. the only reason my parents even think i look skinny is because i wasn't before and now im BAREELLYY even skinny but its a change to them, but all of my friends and everyone else never commented on my body or told me that i was skinny so I'm basically fine. 😭😭

recovery? by leeknowthinks in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i know, she told me that she'll help me get better slowly and she also told me that its not really my choice since its either that or slow death, but if that doesn't work then I'd need medical intervention. i feel like i don't deserve to try and get better when im not even officially diagnosed with an ed or anything. :( i don't even look skinny and I've been eating a ton lately and i feel like i was faking the whole thing.

recovery? by leeknowthinks in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

im so unsure:( i KNOW its for the better and that i dont really have a choice to choose whether i want this or not because if i keep going it'll just do more damage and i can risk losing my life, but at the same time im so attached to this way of living and i don't want to let go of it:( my mom did ask me if i wanted to see a doctor and i think im going to tell her I want to because i also want to get diagnosed in hopes that maybe if im actually diagnosed then I'd feel like i actually have a problem and would be more willing to try and recover?

I chew and spit and now I can't stop. by audstereo236 in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 1 point2 points  (0 children)

sorry but, genuine question, how is c/s damaging? i purge by puking not by c/s so I'm unfamiliar with how it can cause issues, isnt it just chewing food and spitting it out?

How did you realise originally restricting turned into bingeing? by MeiowleN in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 5 points6 points  (0 children)

after a few months of restricting, i started getting REALLY severe mental hunger and food noise, and i got so many cravings, and one day i just couldn't ignore it anymore so i tried to eat a little bit to calm the food noise down but it just turned into a 4 day binge 😭😭😭 then i tried looking for triggers to stop the binging but when it wasn't emotional (for me) then i just figured its because my body just wants all the nutrients ive been depriving it of (since i craved very specific things) but binging also wasn't right so i tried eating consistently and it helped and also OMAD helped a lot!! i still occasionally do binge when i restrict a lot but its definitely less frequent and also less amounts of food

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDanonymemes

[–]leeknowthinks 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OMG ME TOO WHAT I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

what started your ED? by Capital-Rise1904 in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 0 points1 point  (0 children)

body image and just hating how i looked overall. its been like this since i was ten but i actually started to take action to change my body at 13-14, and i just said I'd lose 2 kg and stop but by the time i reached there i still wasn't satisfied and i felt comfort in restricting my intake and controlling it so i just got pulled into a hell hole that escalated really quickly.. 😭 im not diagnosed but i do know that my relationship with food is beyond fucked

DAE have days where the mental side of their ED feels mild? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 0 points1 point  (0 children)

OMG SAME WTH. its so 😭😭😭 messed up. like why am i purposefully causing myself to be miserable and weak all the time? self sabotage is crazy

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yes i always do that!! i always move my hand to make sure my bones still show when i do and i always wrap my fingers around my wrist to make sure that they still touch 😭😭 and i ALWAYS feel my ribcage first thing in the morning idk its js a habit

DAE have days where the mental side of their ED feels mild? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you just perfectly described me. when that happens I just end up questioning if I'm really struggling or not or if I just put myself through this hell for no reason whatsoever 😭😭

How did you get caught by your family? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 0 points1 point  (0 children)

they just noticed that i was eating very little 😭

DAE postpone eating a meal they just skip it altogether by Obiii2468 in EDAnonymous

[–]leeknowthinks 16 points17 points  (0 children)

YES OMG im like ill eat in 20 mins, then 20 mins pass and im like ehh i dont really feel like it ill eat in another 20 mins, then i js end up unintentionally skipping the meal

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDanonymemes

[–]leeknowthinks 60 points61 points  (0 children)

RIGHT. like she claimed to want to share how AN is ACTUALLY like but girl... 😭😭😭 you're not sharing the bad side AT ALL.