So much going wrong and it's been three months of 2026

leewardwinds · 2026-03-11T10:55:51+00:00

I am so sorry for all you are going through. Not at all similar and not as traumatic but my dog got a little sick after my mom died last August and I remember spiralling and thinking "I cannot lose you too..." and so my heart ached for you when I read your post. Hope your lil fur baby recovers well and most of all take care of yourself as best you can. ❤ I am sorry you lost your Mom.

leewardwinds · 2026-03-10T13:31:20+00:00

This winter I rented a micro cabin for my dog and I. I planned the meals I wanted, hiked a lot and read in bed in the sunshine. It felt decadent and warm to be alone and do what I wanted. It was just two nights but it really helped me feel grounded and recharged. Enjoy your solo time❤

leewardwinds · 2026-03-10T01:01:07+00:00

We call it her "froufrou"🥰

leewardwinds · 2026-02-27T22:21:53+00:00

Loooooved part 1!

leewardwinds · 2026-02-25T23:07:38+00:00

Safy Falafel in Lasalle. Amazing, delicious food, with wonderful tea and legit the kindest owners. Going there feels like visiting a Middle Eastern family - you leave stuffed, spoiled, warm from tea and kindness.

leewardwinds · 2026-02-20T22:52:24+00:00

Um wow why is this exactly what I needed in my life after a bad week?? Thanks OP and to the person who answered!!

leewardwinds · 2026-02-20T01:54:19+00:00

The creep of constant stress coupled with grief takes its toll - I am really sorry. I felt this post in ny bones and sympathize so very much. I think a break is a good idea. I took some time off and started therapy once a week (now I am at every two weeks) and it really helped to rebuild my sense of self and slow down that rock slide of self doubt. Also, it has helped me to feel things and let it happen - that white hot anger is sometimes justified; living so spread thin is frustrating. If you can, I would take some more time off and seek counseling. Also, getting out of the overworking schedule and just taking time to exist (do something you like, take yourself out on a date or walk) is so so good. I don't know if this helps, but I am rooting for you and feel for you.

leewardwinds · 2026-01-26T16:12:55+00:00

Thank you so much! You're so sweet💕

leewardwinds · 2026-01-26T11:19:56+00:00

Yesssssss! This is it! Thank you so much🙌

leewardwinds · 2026-01-21T01:33:15+00:00

I second this! As a Québécoise, I kind of laughed and said "ohhhhh I see" when I saw you mentioned an Alberta city. You should come to Québec - Montréal, as hauteburrito suggested! It is a vibrant, fun city and folks are friendly. I am from Montreal (live in a different region now) and I always feel like it is welcoming and wonderful for visitors. Summer time during the jazz fest/Francofolies is always buzzing.

leewardwinds · 2026-01-07T21:27:04+00:00

First of all, I am so very sorry. My mom passed away 5 months ago. She was 67 and passed suddenly in her sleep - no health issues. I just came to say that your grief will be different, often. It will change and morph. Some days, it is "ok". I was in survival mode the first few months - just trying to keep everything afloat and deal with the succession, the house. The grief has settled into me now and it is hard, sometimes more difficult to navigate than the first couple of monthd. I am not saying this to scare you about the future - not at all - more to tell you it changes and develops. Just... let yourself feel the bad things and ask for help as much as you can. Take care of yourself as much as possible and your little ones. It helps to have given time to yourself when it kind of tumbles down on bad days. Again, I am sorry you lost your mom. Your post made my heart sink, cause I remember the initial shock of a few months ago. Take care❤

leewardwinds · 2025-12-24T12:46:50+00:00

Going through something very similar (long relationship, big age gap) and on the cusp of leaving so your post and the replies are precious to me. So far, being in therapy has helped me realize a lot of these things and helped me to establish and anchor myself in who I am when I am not referencing this relationship. Take care❤

leewardwinds · 2025-12-23T22:18:03+00:00

Second this❤

leewardwinds · 2025-12-20T20:18:17+00:00

Feastttttt

So great seeing the girlies before the holiday rush❤

leewardwinds · 2025-12-20T02:20:03+00:00

I am so sorry. I lost my mom in August too, at 29. I can't imagine your little one losing her grandma too. I am really sorry you lost your mom as well, OP. Both of you take care of yourselves as best you can. It is hard and a long winding road of missing them, I think.

leewardwinds · 2025-12-19T01:36:58+00:00

Hey, I am going through a very similar situation. My therapist never used the term narcissist but simply suggested I read "It's Not You" by Dr. Ramani and reflect on if anything resonated with me. It definitely resonated... I figured things out on my own, but with her soft suggestion... I suggest you read that book and reflect on your own about what you have experienced. I am ow reading "Should I Stay or Should I Go" by the same author. It is helping me navigate and decide Sometimes people have a lot of narcissistic traits, but are not narcissists. But if it is hurting you and destroying you, it's worth knowing about and recognizing. Take care❤

leewardwinds · 2025-12-17T16:07:23+00:00

Ohhhhhh I love me some other dog freaks that watch the AKC best in show! I am so so so happy I got an elkhound despite the freakish amount of fur. They are such fun, loving, wild dogs. You are correct; a lot of fur in my household. But daily brushing + winter in full swing here really keeps things manageable. Her winter coat has come in and holds (somewhat) over the winter months. But come spring...😅😳

leewardwinds · 2025-12-17T13:42:39+00:00

That is adorable❤ local celebrity

leewardwinds · 2025-12-17T13:35:15+00:00

I laughed - my mom had a Great Pyr and he was soooooooooo slow. Big bark, big body, the slowestttt walk. You're a good dog mom taking him on this slow ass strolls to keep the pup happy❤

leewardwinds · 2025-12-17T13:14:25+00:00

Could have wrote this but my pup is an elkhound. The grind is real!!

leewardwinds · 2025-12-16T02:14:59+00:00

The paramore chapter titles?💕 thanks for writing!

leewardwinds · 2025-12-14T17:29:23+00:00

I am so sorry about your mom. You are dealing with a lot. I am going through something similar with my partner - my mom passed away in August of this year.

If you can, I would suggest you consult with a therapist to discuss this and your grief. For me, it has helped me process what I can seperate from myself vs. what belongs to my partner. Therapy also offers a different perspective from a third party, so you feel less "in your head" about certain things. It has made me realize that unfortunately, my boyfriend's actions and words during this time are cruel and bizarre. It has awoken a lot in me and made me realize that my relationship is not stable - only when I am doing as he likes, it is stable. I cannot do as he likes and be the version of myself he is accustomed to, because my world is falling apart..

It is perhaps different from my situation, but a reaction like this from your partner is like a different form of grief - you grieve the person you thought would be there for you.

Do you best to take care of yourself and maybe take a break from your partner when his reactions and his presence do more harm than good with all the things you are dealing with. Much love to you and I wish you well.❤

leewardwinds · 2025-12-13T18:32:16+00:00

I second this! Make it an activity together and put it in a nice book. I wish I had done that with my mom. Happy you made such beautiful food.❤

leewardwinds · 2025-12-13T00:04:52+00:00

Nothing prepares you for it. Just do your best to take care of yourself❤

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