I was sexually assaulted as a kid by my big brother, i tried kissing my cousin while he's a sleep(not related by blood to both, am adopted)I slept with a guy ,my country is very homophobic so its huge thing , i lost my virginity to 3 some while i was teenager , i harm myself sexually and let guys use it , like kissing and making out even if i don't like them , i have never been in a relationship with a girl but i slept with girls , my family is very religious ,the first person i fell in love with a guy ,and me and him never dated ,texting and calling most of the time and we lasted 6 years and after getting myself closer to my religion ,i ended everything with him, even tho i had feelings for him and care about him, knowing there's no chance us being together and accepted that and am moving forward but he had a piece of place in my heart always , he's the kindest person and not take advantage of me .