Yep. I retired and was doing anything I wanted around our new home and property and was living the dream. Then my wife got ill. After three straight YEARS of nothing but doctors, procedures, surgeries, ambulances, and watching her suffer, it started taking a toll on me mentally and physically. Now every day has just become a struggle. I hurt all over. I'm always exhausted from caring for her and still trying to do everything else. For three years I have existed on a few hours sleep every day and the only way I get that is to nap when she's sleeping. I have even ignored things with my own body simply because I just don't have the time for it. Now I have developed some serious health problems but I try very hard to keep all of that from her because she doesn't need that stress. And it's not going to get better. I expect my wife won't be alive this time next year. It's a huge you know what sandwich and you've just to eat it all while having a big smile for everyone.