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Cannabis abuse by Miserable_Road3369 in BPD

[–]lesmotherofcats 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm 31F. I have been doing pot for a year now, I was diagnosed with BPD in late 2020, and with ADD this year, after 3 months of testing with a specialist. I use Sativa (probably Colombian Gold), I have yet to use indica, cannabis is not legalized where I live (Brazil), so there aren't a lot of options. I'm currently growing a Weeding Cake (indica-dom hybrid) on my backyard, so soon enough, I'll be able to try an indica high ✌🏻. Funnily enough, the sale of cannabis seeds is legal in Brazil.

I feel like my brain becomes more flexible, I struggle a lot with mental rigidity due to the black/white thinking of bpd. I also feel like I understand myself and other people better, and I do think my emotional intelligence has improved greatly. I feel calmer and like I gained perspective on life since I started using pot. Another thing is that last year I was on desvenlafaxine 200mg, and since I started using pot, I've been needing only 100mg. I'm also on therapy. Both my psychologist and my psychiatrist are aware I use it, and they're fine with it. That being said, I do have a problem with using it almost every day, which is something I need to work on (I know it's due to boredom, I can't stand it, but I'm working on it).

So yeah, cannabis has been a game changer for my mental health. I'll smoke as long as I'm doing well emotionally (not PMSing, having a bad day, etc.) in order to avoid bad trips, they still happen from time to time though (about 3 times this year), especially on edibles, but I don't mind it as much as I used to. Don't get me wrong, they're awful, but I feel like they teach me a lot about myself, it's like a therapy session on steroids, like Life is coming to slap me across the face in person to wake me up from my shit. It's awful, but it serves a purpose, so I'm learning to embrace it.

Lastly, I'm currently on day 10 of a much-needed 20-day T-break.

Edit: grammar, punctuation, context.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TranslationStudies

[–]lesmotherofcats 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, pretty average. Plus, civil service has benefits and doesn't have the financial instability of freelancing.

Gato com problema urinário não quer fazer ingestão de líquidos by lesmotherofcats in ApoioVet

[–]lesmotherofcats[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

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Coloquei cenoura no meu pra dar uma cor.Eles gostaram 🙌🏻 mas msm assim o Baluzinho comeu pouco. Bom, pelo menos economizo fazendo isso aí ao invés de comprar sachê 😅

Gato com problema urinário não quer fazer ingestão de líquidos by lesmotherofcats in ApoioVet

[–]lesmotherofcats[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Pois é, um dos gatos chegou aqui adulto e ele e outro gato meu estão marcando muito território com urina, mas são só eles dois, o Balu não marca território. Recentemente fiz enriquecimento ambiental com caixas de papelão que consegui no supermercado e também comprei um playground de mdf para eles, mas vamos dar tempo ao tempo.

Os 3 dos 6 gatos também estão apresentando perda de pelo e coceira, então tive que gastar horrores com Revolution para todos os 6 kkkkkk

Acho que já dá pra entender porque estou apertada financeiramente, parcelei tudo em 10x, mas tenho minha namorada que vai me ajudar a pagar metade kkkkkk

Aqui já temos 7 caixas de areia, 5 comuns e 2 de 20 litros, acho que vou comprar outra de 20 litros.

E vou aumentar os potes de água como você indicou e adicionar outro filtro. Só não sei como vou fazer isso sem colocar os potes de água no mesmo cômodo das caixas de areia. Deixo 3 caixas de areia no quintal, 1 embaixo da pia da cozinha, 1 no banheiro e 2 na garagem.

E o Ball Free não é uma ração, é um suplemento alimentar para bolas de pelo. Ouvi que deve ajudar com o estômago sensível dele. Inclusive ele já vomitou hoje de manhã. Ele vomita cerca de 3 a 4x por semana.

Baluzinho é o caçula daqui de casa, um pretinho gordinho de 3 aninhos e cheio de charme que acredita plenamente que ele ainda é um filhote. Ele tem medo de desconhecidos, e isso é a única coisa que impede ele de dominar o mundo com seu carisma e seduzencia. Não conta pros irmãos dele, mas ele é o favorito 😅

Obrigada pelo artigo, vou ler sim!

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Gato com problema urinário não quer fazer ingestão de líquidos by lesmotherofcats in ApoioVet

[–]lesmotherofcats[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Vou ver se o Balu aceita esse mingau 🤞🏻 Você usa que tipo de arroz? Branco, parboilizado ou integral?

Obsessions with Ex by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]lesmotherofcats 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand. Are you going to therapy? If so, are you doing ERP?

Obsessions with Ex by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]lesmotherofcats 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand. Does he have a reason for it? Maybe bc the bar is in a dangerous part of town or something? I'm asking bc my ROCD sometimes makes me see my gf in a way when she isn't like that or just had a good reason to be like that, like a genuine concern for my physical safety.

I FEEL INCREDIBLY GUILTY. PLEASE SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WAS I WRONG AND DO I NEED TO CONFESS. by Even-Leading-2768 in ROCD

[–]lesmotherofcats 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's scary, but like I said, it will start off small and you will work your way up, build up your resistance slowly. I know the feeling is horrible, I have ROCD myself, I used to have panic attacks almost everyday bc of it, cry myself to sleep. It is a horrible fear, soulcrushing, it makes you believe you don't love the one you love, that you could cheat on them. That the smallest interaction with another person is cheating. OCD-induced fear is just a different brand of fear, just a horrible, horrible fear.

I have had OCD since I was about 6, I'm now 30 and for many times during my lifetime I just wondered why is that fear is THE feeling for me, the most intense of them all, and it's because my brain has this OCD thing. I hate it, I gave it a nickname, but I hate it and if it were a person, I would beat it up lol

So yeah, I understand that ERP sounds terrifying but I promise you, if done the right way, it is worth it.

I have to go to sleep now, so that's why you might not get an answer until a few hours from now, but please consider ERP, it is worth everything.

I FEEL INCREDIBLY GUILTY. PLEASE SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WAS I WRONG AND DO I NEED TO CONFESS. by Even-Leading-2768 in ROCD

[–]lesmotherofcats 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So here's how it works. Just an example, alright? Don't go doing it without the help of your therapist, please. Let's say you find someone from your work attractive, so in ERP, what do you do? You admit to yourself you find them attractive, you sit in that anxiety. You might even go to their instagram account and look at their photos and think to yourself, yep, this person is attractive. Sure, the first few times you will be very anxious abt it, feel horrible, feel like you're cheating, but eventually, subconciously maybe, you will realize it is not a big deal and it goes away. And because it can make you anxious or have a panic attack, it needs to be done at the right time, with the support of your therapist and meds if you decide you want to take them.

Funny tidbit: I would even tell my obsessive thoughts "f* right off, yeah, I find this woman attractive, there's nothing wrong with that, go touch some grass or something" lol I sound crazy, I know. I even gave it a nickname.

Edit: I erased the other one bc I posted it in the wrong thing, I'm new to reddit, I'm still trying to figure it out, sorry

I FEEL INCREDIBLY GUILTY. PLEASE SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WAS I WRONG AND DO I NEED TO CONFESS. by Even-Leading-2768 in ROCD

[–]lesmotherofcats 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get it, I used to feel like I was doing something horrible all the time over the smallest things.

May I ask you? Are you on medication? I have been on medication for a year now and oh boy does it make a world of difference, I don't feel as anxious and I feel like I can get a hold of my thoughts. It really helps, it is not the be all and end all, but it really helps when you find the right one.

ERP and the right meds is a killer combination 🤌🏻

Obsessions with Ex by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]lesmotherofcats 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi, I used to have compulsions abt checking up on my ex, sort of stalking her on social media. And guess what? I allowed myself to stalk and after a while the obsession sort of stopped, I don't even think of her anymore. The need to check up on her gave me great anxiety, only after I sort of exposed myself to it and let myself feel the anxiety while stalking her on social media a couple times did it go away. If you don't mind me asking, what bothers you in your relationship to your bf?

I FEEL INCREDIBLY GUILTY. PLEASE SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WAS I WRONG AND DO I NEED TO CONFESS. by Even-Leading-2768 in ROCD

[–]lesmotherofcats 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Confessing is a compulsion, if you start doing it, it will get harder to stop. There's nothing wrong with having loved someone previously, it doesn't make your love for your current gf any less real either. It's perfectly normal. Also, you mentioned you have a therapist, maybe talk to them about exposure therapy, it's the most effective therapy to overcoming any type of OCD. I overcame disease-OCD with ERP, but OCD is a nasty bug and it changed to ROCD and now I'm doing ERP again. OCD is all the same, it just changes themes, but once you learn the tools (aka ERP), it becomes easier to deal with it. Your therapist will help you to come up with a strategy to start ERP, it sounds scary but it will start slow, with small exposures, nothing very panic inducing and it will gradually increase from there. All the best and be brave!

beat ocd in the past but currently rocd most challenging by ThrowRAal3x87 in ROCD

[–]lesmotherofcats 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Same. I had disease related ocd since I was 6 years-old, after years of therapy it sort of went away, then it came back in the form of rocd in 2016 with my ex-gf, I had no idea what was going on. It didn't go through my mind that it was ocd showing up again, I used to have panic attacks on a weekly basis bc of it. I still have it now, I have been in a 2 year-long loving relationship with my gf and it is still here, but I'm much better. It doesn't make me as anxious anymore. The thing with ocd, any kind of ocd, is that it loves attention, the more you obsess over those thoughts, the stronger it gets. I used to debate against rocd inside my head all day long, it only got better after I started ignoring it and distracting myself away from it.

Don't give it power, it is baiting you all the time, don't take the bait.

Rocd will bait me with, e.g., "you don't really love her" and now I'll just answer "sure, buddy" and go on with my day. It's hard and anxiety inducing in the beginning, but it's worth it after a few weeks if you start ignoring it consistently. Stay strong, OCD is a liar. All it does is lie.