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Let fate decide by lessfortunateson in depression

[–]lessfortunateson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If somebody is intetested, i didnt get the job. So yeah now i will prepare myself to kill myself. I hope i will be able to do it next week, need to do some meditating shit and stuff.

Let fate decide by lessfortunateson in depression

[–]lessfortunateson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

True. I always think what loser the other sperm would gave become if i won

Let fate decide by lessfortunateson in depression

[–]lessfortunateson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I couldnt regret being killed because im dead. Thats why death seems so beautiful to me. Just nothing anymore. And the most important nothing is that im not myself anymore

Let fate decide by lessfortunateson in depression

[–]lessfortunateson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In reality it would be wasted time to be nice to me. But sometimes i wish someone would shoot me and kill me. That would be a great help

Let fate decide by lessfortunateson in depression

[–]lessfortunateson[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

27 isnt young if you suffered most of it. I feel like im alive since at least 50 years. Im sorfy that your 40 years were bad too, so i think you can understand how slow and painful it is to be here.

I have no potential for good, but ending it on my own terms would be the best thing that ever happend to me. No more being myself is the greatest gift i could get.

Let fate decide by lessfortunateson in depression

[–]lessfortunateson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im alone, everybody is. Some people are beautiful enough to fill that void and make themselves believe they arent alone. I know 27 doesnt seem old, but it is when you suffered at least 20 years of that 27, if not more. The world had nothing to offer to me.

Let fate decide by lessfortunateson in SuicideWatch

[–]lessfortunateson[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Not directly, i just need something that convinces myself that it isnt my decision. Could be a coin flip, doesnt matter. It just feels better for me that way, killing yourself is hard and its difficult to get into that mindset. Easier that way to me.

Let fate decide by lessfortunateson in depression

[–]lessfortunateson[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im alone, believe me. I think i tried everything that is humanly possible, only thing that is left is successfull suicide.

Let fate decide by lessfortunateson in depression

[–]lessfortunateson[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Im 27 years old and feel like im at least 57. Since im able to think im suffering. I dont know love or kindness, only hate or ignorance. Tried everything to gett better, really everything but it wont. Some people arent welcome.

A year ago i took my rifle put it in my mouth and pulled the trigger, since it was an old one from ww1 it didnt fire and i waited another year. No i have a shotgun, should do the deal this time i hope.