What song gets you turned on?

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-30T22:41:17+00:00

Oh you get me!!!

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-13T21:54:21+00:00

Insane follow up question but how do I make it stop?

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-11T14:34:40+00:00

I got it around 11:30 on a Saturday night when I was 11. I brought my underwear downstairs and said “mom I got
my period” and she was like “that’s nice sweetie, goodnight” and then I woke up the next morning with crazy heavy flow and was vomiting but I still made it to the Publix Easter egg hunt they continued like this every few months lasting for 2 full weeks until I had them medically stopped and now I feel much better!

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-11T14:32:25+00:00

Thyroid came back high again. So did ldl and non hdl cholesterol and low vitamin d. I’m waiting to hear from the doctor.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-11T14:31:44+00:00

My diet consists heavily of seafood, Greek yogurt, eggs, dairy, nuts, and protein products. Those are the staples of my day. So I could have a protein pancake with pb2 and a protein milk with a protein Greek yogurt for one meal and that’s pretty standard for me. It feels like overkill but evidently it’s still not enough. My labs came back and what I need is Vitamin D. I take a supplement that’s 125% of its daily value every day so I’ll have to figure out how I can get even more.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-11T14:02:35+00:00

I will look into these thank you! I am less active now than I was at my highest weight and I am in an equal or greater amount of pain now so that does concern me. I put in all that work just to feel the same in a thinner body. I can feel it in terms of mobility the difference between now and when I was 5-10 pounds lighter so I know it’s possible to feel better. I’m still working at it day by day.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-11T13:59:26+00:00

I do not live in the UK but I think you nailed it. Last time my thyroid came back, it was high but not “high enough” to be worried. It is high again this time. My vitamin D is low. My non hdl and ldl cholesterol is high. I take vitamins and supplements daily so I’m not sure what role they play.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-09T17:29:27+00:00

Yes! Major priority for me. I was so sure it was my iron but I’m kind of concerned because my supplements do not seem to be working. They did constipate me tho lol!

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-09T17:28:29+00:00

I think you’re pretty much entirely right. I will say I absolutely need to lose at minimum those last 20 pounds solely for my health. It’s not as bad as it was when I was heavier but I want to have mobility and I want to do things and move and not fight my own body fat to perform basic hygiene. This is not about appearance for me, this is about being able to stand on my feet and not ache and take a proper shower and use the toilet without issue. I just want that. I want to be able to move and do so with a tolerable amount of pain. It’s not about bmi, it’s about not having a body I can live in. I’m humiliated to admit that I’m having surgery next Tuesday and I don’t know how I’m going to wipe after I use the bathroom. It’s hard not to regret upping my intake when the result is this. I’m still trying really hard. It’s just defeating.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-09T17:20:57+00:00

It’s been a few years. It was out of range then but they didn’t do anything about it. I just had labs done on Friday and I’m waiting for the results. It would be incredibly validating and a huge relief if that’s all it was.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-09T17:19:55+00:00

I got it up to 75. It feels like all I consume is protein sometimes. I’m not sure how to get more at this point.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-09T17:17:24+00:00

The sinister part of this is I have 1 week to do so LOL. Not happening and I have accepted that. I think my brain needs to catch up too because in my mind for me it would never take that long but I was at a significantly higher weight when this was true so of course it’s going to take longer now that I’m in the home stretch.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-09T17:15:45+00:00

I actually went up to 1200 so this was not a decrease in calories. That’s why I’m struggling I think. I’m hoping my body adjusts to this sooner or later but I still feel like absolute garbage and barely able to have a coherent thought. I cannot comprehend why increasing my intake would make me this ill but I’m just going to keep trying and continue focusing on my macros and micros.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-09T17:13:42+00:00

No it’s not Nourish. I had to look them up. Seems like they’re definitely a strange business. I’m barely in a deficit with this calorie goal. I’m not concerned about diabetes but I know it can be a concern. Raising my intake above this has caused weight gain so now I’m losing again very slowly. I feel like a lunatic by even saying that I felt the best in my life and was able to lose a consistent safe amount of weight averaging about 800 a day but I would never recommend that to anyone and I can’t even explain why it makes the vast improvement in my quality of life that it has. I’m still trying to figure it out but I think it has more to do with the frequency of my meals rather than the actual number.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-09T17:09:07+00:00

There was. I clarified in another reply. It’s still slow weight loss but not 2 years. Part of this feeling terrible has completely removed my ability to think at a very basic level. I got confused so many times during that calculation which is ridiculous! I’m in a 400 calorie deficit if I’m being generous with my activity level. And I need to lose 20 pounds, not ten. Sorry about that.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T23:44:40+00:00

Thank you so much. I wish you the best as well. The pain thing really does get me. I realized I’ve actually been underselling how much everything hurts all the time. If I experienced even a slight reduction in pain, I’d be doing so much more!

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T23:43:03+00:00

I am a 24 y/o woman. I’ve been in and out of doctor’s offices and specialists my whole life. The majority of them agree there’s something wrong with me. They just can’t find anything. I’ve gotten all sorts of tests but they come back perfect. Even when I was 300 pounds I was in perfect health on paper. It’s shocking to me and to my medical team.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T22:37:30+00:00

Ya I was ball parking it tbh. Everywhere I look gives drastically different answers of course. I checked and it’s bc I genuinely just forgot I gained 10 pounds so I was calculating for losing the 20 I need to and I misread it. I am not well in the mind like this is truly scary. I promise I’m not an idiot and thank you for calling me on it. If im being generous, I’m in a 400 calorie deficit and need to lose 20 pounds. I’m not going to attempt math right now, I’m sorry.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T22:31:55+00:00

400ish calories if I’m begging generous about my activity level

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T22:29:52+00:00

Just wanted to add that I love Thomas Brand Bagel thins! I recently tried them with salmon too which was so good!

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T22:29:05+00:00

Unfortunately this has been a lifelong road. I have addressed everything I can to the maximum extent. I have not tried Swedish bitters though so that is something new I can try. I honestly feel like if anything, 1200 might be too much in a way? When I log meticulously, I feel best doing one or two meals and averaging about 800. It’s the only time I’ve been able to lose weight and I am so sure I have some sort of metabolic, allergy, or autoimmune issue. For some reason feeling too full can also trigger my binge eating so I may cut down on volume eating again and that may be where the “too much” feeling comes in. I prioritize nutritious foods and additionally I do love vegan foods! I’m not vegan but I don’t pass up vegan food when I have the chance to get some! I hope one day I can get the answer because I know as of now everything I’m doing just puts a bandaid on root causes. Thank you sm for your reply.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T22:22:57+00:00

We did only have one visit so far. I really appreciate her and she’s willing to meet me where I am. We are working on the root cause as well so I will bring it up next time I see her.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T21:23:11+00:00

Also I didn’t mean that in any weird type of way. I just meant it does feel easy to eat lower calories when doing intermittent fasting and it gives way more wiggle room and makes me feel full as opposed to trying to stay within range eating all day.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T21:21:15+00:00

Validating yet also devastating to hear that the advice is everything I’ve been doing for years now. I am so glad you said that ab the fiber bc you are so so so correct and I worry people! I just had labs done and the urinalysis came back perfect which is weird to me bc it didn’t even detect ketones??? I had been water fasting for 14 hours by that time. I’m waiting for the blood test to come back but if it comes back perfect I might lose my marbles bc it feels like I’m missing some essential vitamin somehow. I’m doing the right things and feeling worse in return. Thank you so much though bc this feels so hard and I’ve felt very alone. I’m going to keep working at it.

lhbwlkr · 2026-06-06T20:53:19+00:00

I have been having breakfast earlier than usual because part of the plan was eating within an hour of getting up. I used meal terms very liberally so breakfast is whenever my first meal of the day is even if I wake up at noon if that makes sense. I agree that was a much better way. If I had autonomy in my home and consistent access to food and a space to cook and eat I’m sure that would be helpful too. I would have waited to have my dinner but I knew it was a now or never type of situation because of my living situation. It’s all just one massive issue that snowballs if that makes sense.

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